A lap of Australia. Ill bet you change your mind when you turn 50. Good luck what ever you do.

These kinds of questions are not allowed. I suggest you edit your question immediately not to mention suicide. Its not allowed on this site or probably any other if you look closely at the terms of use. Added: I suggest if you need to repost this question you make it hypothetical with a 10 year diagnosis. I've lost two of my sisters, one to suicide. Its not just about you. But as for suggestions as to what I think is important to look forward to in the next ten years, that might not be what you would look forward to. I had two children move in upstairs. I already love them! They come down from time to time to give their mom a break. I don't think I will live more than ten more years. My son is raised and my grandson doesn't need me anymore either. But you can welcome anyone into your life at any time. You can volunteer at a homeless shelter and invest yourself into someone else's life and make those ten years worth something. Maybe you could invest in one of your hobbies and show someone else how to do it. I'm showing the kids how to crochet. I don't expect they will learn, but it helps to calm them down when they are upset and it lets them know someone else cares about them. And you are wrong about no one loving you. Many people love you, including me. Even though I don't even know you. I hope you don't choose to be a quitter at 50.

You see what you are looking for. If you look for the love in the world you will see it. If you look for the cold and evil you will find it. So if you don't want to see it don't look for it. Don't go to where you know you will find it. I rebuke evil in my world!

In these type of suicide questions, get professional help immediately.

1-800-273-TALK. Please, please call and talk to someone.

Well then. At least you won't have to worry about social security running out for you. Do whatever you can afford to do for the next 10 years until your 50th birthday. Money will have a lot to do with your choices of activities, both foreign and domestic. An old song said "live fast, love hard, die young, and leave a beautiful memory." They might even put you on the news for a minute. 8/28/23

If you can afford it do some travelling, visit some beautiful places, see some beautiful art. If you can't, maybe do some voluntary work where you will meet some selfless people. Hopefully you will see some of the good & beauty in the world. In the meantime I'd like to add to the sentiments expressed by Stevo, Linda, Jenny & Bostjan above. Many of us have had times when we couldn't see the point of carrying on but we got through it. I don't know where you are in the world but there will be people who will listen to you & try to help if you ask. In the UK The Samaritans are there (phone 116 123) or CALM (Campaign Against Living Miserably) (0800 58 58 58). Both offer webchat too. Bostjan64 has given a US number above. You say nobody loves you, I don't know anything about your life so I won't argue with you, however you can't say nobody ever will, how do you know that? The fact you've given yourself 10 years suggests you haven't completely given up hope. Look for some of the good things in the world & please seek help in the darker moments. Good luck friend.