First of all, realize that suicide is the easy way out, and I can understand why you would want to take the easy way out, I have been there. BUT PLEASE REALIZE there are people that care, even if you dont think there are, I KNOW there are. Get connected with a new group of people, talk to your friends, your teachers, or your family members about what you have going on. FIND AT LEAST one person you can trust and talk to about what is going on in your life. A school counselor or if you have the ability to go to another psychologist of some sort would also probably help. I found help, and I have not wanted to kill myself since. It just takes a lot of work, determination, and inner strength to realize that life is actually worth living, you will be missing out on so much stuff if you end it all now.

Post your parent's # we'll call and get you help.

First of all, be totally aware that YOU ARE NOT ALONE in these thoughts, in the way you feel, or in what you do. For the most part, all you have to do is look at a LOT of the questions about suicide and cutting on this site. Read the answers, too. They may help. Second, realize that you are talking about extremes that I'm SURE are not true: "no one wants me and everything i do is a huge mistake." I would be willing to bet that there IS someone that wants you. They may not be a part of your circle, yet, and they may NEVER be, but they are out there. All you have to do is find them. AND, SURELY not EVERYTHING you do is a "huge mistake". Don't concentrate on the mistakes... Concentrate on the successes. See my answer at http://www.answerbag.com/a_view/2799153 for more.

suicide is just running away from your problems. you not cutting yourself will make U a stronger person, not the urge to do so. life has its ups and downs. u are not alone and are needed . .to make a difference in at least somebody's life. your life has a purpose. dont turn away from it.. and if it ever gets hard..email me, God bless

God wants you He wants to make you happy. When you cry God cries with you. is there anyone you can talk to?

I think you should seek professional help. Is there a hotline in your area? Remember, you have friends on AB. My e-mail is in my profile.

thing are the same for me but an aternative to cutting is squeezing ice in ur hand really hard i do t and it helps its not quite the same but it helps with the urges

When I cut myself I feel a certain calm come over me. I like seeing the blood squirt out of the vein that I have successfully accessed. I no longer feel hunger and I'd like to lose weight. I cut myself 15 years ago when my husband cheating on me, was emotionally abusive, and in my extreme low self-esteem I thought I deserved his negative abusive paroles. Recently (15 years later) I feel a similar pain. I am 40 pounds overweight. I am so sad, angry, disappointed and bereft. The cutting, the dripping blood in the bath tub brings some relief. I can handle the physical pain rather than the emotional. I truly don't want to kill myself...just perhaps punish myself for my poor choices in male partners. For today, I feel that I'd like to cut every other day or so...lessen my eating, lose weight and have the illusion of feeling powerful which I cam clear is a motivating factor. I am an alcoholic and feel cutting is the lesser of two evils. I don't want to go too far. I use a rubber band to pump up the vein in my wrist and use a straight edge razor....We'll see....not too sure if I will tell my therapist. I think I am functioning okay, for today. Why makes me a bit distressed in that most of all the research and documentation is primarily focused only on adolescents...how many adult women and men cut? I don't have a lot of scars because I chose my veins carefully. I also would like to know how to cut witout killing...

You are not alone. People who do this typically feel like they have no control in their lives and this is one thing they can control. I would strongly suggest speaking with someone you trust (i.e. parent, friend, counselor, etc.) Talking about it and acknowledging it is the first step. Cutting is a symptom, not the problem. Do you have someone that you trust to speak with about this? How old are you?