I dunno.
But my friend came up with a theory that uhm 1 sec
"okay, its two in the morning, and ive been lying awake thinking about this, so i really want to get my thoughts down. the following blog will make you think very deeply. at the very least, it will stimulate your mind, very possibly drive some people to the brink of insanity, and maybe even raise the suicide level. it is filled with many unanswered questions that will never ever be answered. but i have also made a few conclusions.
for some reason, i felt the need to think about the origin of the universe, so i traveled way back in time (mentally, of course.) how did the universe begin? scientists say the big bang theory. sufficient enough for me. it all started with a little molecule that was holding in so much, it exploded. fair enough. but how did that little molecule get there? i have a few theories. one of them: god put it there. but before i elaborate on that one, here's option two: it was always there. now i dont believe that same molecule was just sitting there, waiting for the right time to explode. that just makes no sense. so lets use some information we know about the universe today: it is expanding. (quick question: expanding into what?) maybe the universe just expands to a certain point, and then it reverses and starts imploding on itself. then it returns back to its molecular state, and the whole cycle begins again. if thats the case, how long has this been going on? what number universal cycle are we in now? the first? seventh? billionth?
another question: does the universe do exactly the same thing each time? or does it shift slightly?
back on track: the possible fact that the universe has been going through that cycle infinitely just doesnt make much sense to me. could that matter really have always been there? forever? well, theres a few things i know about matter: you cant create it, and you cant destroy it. maybe blow something to bits, but wont the matter still be there, despite its dispersed state? there will always be matter. which means the same matter throughout the universe will always be there. forever. it will never go away. for some reason, the thought of the universe continuing on forever without end frightens me... not sure why. perhaps this is true. then i would draw a conclusion that time is not linear, but rather more circular, going on forever. like the universe is on loop, or something. if time is linear (because a line does continue on forever in both directions), thats a disturbing thought to me...
but for some reason, that theory is slightly disturbing to me. so heres my other theory. yes, matter cannot be destroyed or created... by other matter. but by a divine essence? whos to say? perhaps god did put the molecule there. but i wonder what it was like before he did so? there would have been nothing. (around this time, i started to have an epiphony) in my attempt to comprehend nothing, i ended up drawing a conclusion. ill try to recreate my train of thought, but it wont be incredibly easy, because this all passed through my head quite fast. now, realize, nothing is just that: nothing. it is absence. there is no silence, no darkness, not even time. thats where it hit me: nothing is impossible. not only incomprehensible, but flat out impossible. nothing does not and cannot exist. (which, if you think about it is quite redundant. i suppose its so obvious, that you think WOAH!) but then, matter existing just out of nowhere doesnt seem like a very probable explanation to me either.
heres some more questions: say there was nothing. how long did it take god to decide to entertain himself with the creation of the universe? even if there was time, its completely immeasurable, because nothings happening. (literally) and also, doesnt timelessness seem pretty... eternal? if there wasnt nothing, how did matter suddenly just come out of nowhere? if there was nothing, how did god get there? or if he didnt, how did we get here?
and so i have made a final conclusion: NOTHING MAKES SENSE! as far as im concerned, we shouldnt even exist. but that wouldnt make sense either, following my previous thoughts!! so now i believe in magic! :)
p.s. honestly, im quite surprised to find that i can think that deeply, and not go insane. that makes me feel good about my mental well being! i tend to question my sanity, sometimes. so its good to know im fairly stable. i think its because i realize that most of the questions in this blog will never be answered, and ive accepted that fact.
*next day* i thought of something. this is much easier to explain than the beginning of the universe. you know the expression: "since the beginning of time"? ive decided theres no such thing. time doesnt have a beginning, and it will not have an end. it always was. it is merely a concept, completely based on perception, with man-made instruments that are used to measure its passing in varied intervals. (aka: clocks.) time is fascinating, but its fairly easy for me to understand... easier than nothing, at least. the whole time is forever thing: if you still cant grasp it, realize also that even before the universe (if there was a before) time was always there. its just a concept. it doesnt pass at a certain rate. it is purely based on perception. (that conclusion came a lot easier to me than the fact that nothing is impossible.)"
I dunno where in there her theory is, but the entire thing is interesting...
Comments
Thank you RayGunn!! I'm reading about that right now :)
by LuckyLefty on October 8th, 2008
If you wikipedia it, you'll probably overheat your brain, there's alot of things to learn...
by MetalRain on October 8th, 2008
If I can recall, there's something called the "Higgs Boson" or "God Particle" as its also known as... That wikipedia.org article is also interesting
by MetalRain on October 8th, 2008
Yeah I trailed off into W & Z bosons, then into weak force and then into standard model... and then it just lost me. Do physics classes teach deeper into this stuff?
by LuckyLefty on October 8th, 2008
I think only Quantum Physics classes teach it, I'm actually been thinking about taking one up for my elective this year, It'll go nicely with my Accounting major lol
by MetalRain on October 8th, 2008