i may be split in too. one girl of me representing me..a parent of my inner child, she is weeping at her ego which would be in the center, because she thinks everyone can see her fears at times and doesnt kno what to do about it..and the other me would be the me i desire, the one i'd like to step into now but i kno takes time to manifest itself. The middle picture of the ego the fact that i wish for the ego to go away..and the little girl would be looking at it with somewhat dispear, and somewhat hope, because she knows she needs to learn how to tame it but doesn't always feel up to it ..it would read here for..good..because as i grow i realize the ego is apart of us no matter what..because it represents wants and desires which are ok and normal..but not always the path that is for the highest good. there could be whisps of light clouds in front of both girls(the two me's) representing that i come in and out of my fog. I would be on a path..a long path ..open road representing that i think our souls are eternal.. and lightning may be off in the distance..crackling a little.. the shade of pink and black..so as to represent the way to am attracted to distaster every nowand then, when my drama family past creeps up on me..but its not rough..it just creeps up..testing me..and i must heal and move on..they would be pink and black shades of lightning because pink is love and i know everything happenes for a reason..even stormy family circumstances, and black because it scares me and seems as though it will not go away sometimes. Eyes would be looking upon me somewhat my own eyes and somewhat those of others who have inspred me.. and my angelic spirit would be bowing down to those people, honoring them for what they have taught me and reaching out as to say, i will love and need you in one way or another forever.. and my mouth would be closed as to say, you mean more to me than words can speak. there would be kind faces in the distance because a lot of who i am revolves around the concept of love, which is sometimes healthy and sometimes not. at the bottom of the page there would be paths spiraling up and down as to represent that i see myself going up at times and down at other times..yet always knowing no matter how rocky the road is, that were all connected, as is a spiral. my head may be a litlte small..but with rings around it, as to show that i think others are more deserving than i am at times and there "seem" to overpower, yet to say that i know this will change with time if i grab only those rings i feel approaching me and that i'm trying to bring into my life..and take control of my destiny. the background would be blue..and the whole picture may be as if my life was riding a wave, because i have an undefiably drawn to the ocean. candles will be light around my bed and all around me, as to say i feel at peace when i sleep, and i'd like for that reality to not only be while sleeping but more often in my own moments of reality. And there would be a light linking me to the person i desire to be, because I can feel myself becoming her.

This kind of sums it up

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again lol

like a collage of my memories, little bits of the places i've been or want ot visit. books i've read, cd art from theongs i love, all the people i love and care about , along with those whom i no longer speak with, they'd go in the daark corner on the lower right hand side of the canvas along with the bad memories.