Pattijo, I am so sorry to read that. Are you scared as well? What happened to her? Do you have someone around you who can come and live with you for few days just to divert your mind from think about her. Please tell how can I help you. You are in my thoughts.

OMG that's awful. Try to be calm. Do you have a close friend or relative who can come and be with you? Did your neighbour have pets? If so you must take care of them until alternative arrangements are made. For the time being try to be as strong as you have ever been, and take care of her place for her - clear the mailbox, water the plants, just as she would have. This is a terrible experience for you, but at times such as this there is always someone who steps up to the task - her family may well not be up to it. Do it for her! You can be that sea of calm in the middle of turmoil. Grieve for your friend of course, but also be the neighbour from heaven.

You are stable enough to come to answerbag... that's good. The most important thing that the answerbag community can do for you is offer you advice. So if you ever have any questions or just need some help. make sure to come to us. We're here for you. As for your current question... you will always remember her somewhere inside. Trying to hide your feeling won't do you any good. It is alright to be scared. Try, as the others have said, to keep going. Be strong.

I know how you feel Ive seen it In my line of work amny times, none of us want to tell another person that one of their loved one has died, and nothing makes the task easy. No policy, procedure, phrasing, or formula can stop the pain, shock, and trauma for the person who is notified. The task is compounded because our society denies death and hides from it. They are plunged into the deep pain and uncontrolable emotions when the time comes and do the best they can to just make it through the notification before they become overwhelmed with emotion. Death notification is extremely hard for me and unpleasant because I know what to expect when I knock on the door and begin to explain to the family or friends that someone is not coming home tonight. People tend to have some common reactions including emotions and guilt. Usually what you and everyone else feels is a normal expressions of grief and we attempt to help people deal with this seemingly intolerable issue on a daily basis. You are not alone there myself and plenty other people out here on AB that will be here for you. any time. If there is anyone you can call tonight to be with you for a while, I would call them. You don't need to be alone at this time.

Patti Jo, go talk to a human being, nobody on here can give you anything like the level of support that might well be appropriate at this time.