Well from what I see you are beautiful.what I suggest is to start a moderate exercise program,the gains you make will definately help you get your confidence back,and at the same time will make you feel good and have more energy.

I would say you have low self-esteem and maybe some depression issues. If you go to a school it would be in your best interest to go and talk to someone about it. If you don't have that kind of counselor in your school then find someone you can trust and tell them you are feeling down about youself. There is always someone to talk to you just have to find them. If you can't find someone then I would be willing to listen. Sometimes telling a stranger your problems is a little easier then telling someone you know. If you want to talk just send me a message. llowe@nmu.edu

When reading this question one would naturally look at your avatar. I do not see what you see, maybe you should read about Body Dysmorphic Disorder. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Body_dysmorphic_disorder http://www.ocdla.com/bodydysmorphicdisorder.html BODY DYSMORPHIC DISORDER (BDD) - SYMPTOMS AND TREATMENT The primary distinguishing feature of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) is an obsessive preoccupation with a perceived defect in one's physical appearance. BDD obsessions may manifest as excessive, disproportionate concerns about a minor flaw, or as recurrent, anxiety-provoking thoughts about an entirely imagined defect. BDD obsessions are most frequently focused on the head and face, but may involve any body part. BDD goes beyond normal concern with one's appearance, and may significantly impair academic and professional functioning, as well as interpersonal relationships. In extreme cases, an individual with BDD may completely shun any contact with people in an effort to avoid having the defect being observed by others. Common BDD obsessions involve: * Moles and freckles being too large or noticeable * Acne * Minor scars or skin aberrations * Too much facial or body hair * Too little hair on head * Size and/or shape of genitalia * Breast size * Muscles being too small * Overall size, shape and/or symmetry of the face or another body part Common BDD compulsions include: * Repetitive checking of a minor or imagined flaw in mirrors * Avoidance of mirrors * Avoidance of having picture taken * Repetitive grooming activities such as shaving, combing hair, etc. * Repetitive checking, touching and/or measuring of a minor or imagined defect * Wearing excessive make-up to camouflage a minor or imagined flaw * Wearing certain clothes to camouflage a minor or imagined defect * Multiple medical visits, especially to dermatologists

...change your thoughts about you...; the revulsion will fade...

Wow. That's not good. It's a body image issue. What your mind sees is not in line with who you are. Some positive self talk will help. If you can change your thought process on your own get a few sessions with a counselor I call it coaching.

Looks like your mentally warping your self image. It's all phsycological....might be helpful to get some professional help.

If you have money, take sewing classes and make your own clothes. I'm not positive, but there are sewing techniques to make any "body" look good. Also open an account, if you don't already have one, on craigslist. Once you write the ads, you can post them every week, or more if you like. Write 1 or 2 ads: -A group for women to give each other honest feedback about their appearance, & you can trade clothes and tips. -A group of women who meet to talk about eating disorder issues. You can read books together. -At least in my town, "eating disorder" is in the phone book. Some treatment centers take insurance. I wasn't sure if that was the issue.