Get him fired! Someway somehow. But have fun doing it!

How is he reacting around you? Is he feeling the same, as far as you can tell? Or is he indifferent? As for you, I believe you haven't gotten over him/your relationship yet. This could be from various reasons, such as missing the time you two were together, or perhaps a bitter ending to your relationship, with which you cannot come to terms. I don't know how good he is in his field of work, but as you say you "couldn't do that to him" (getting him fired) means you still care about him, and I say, don't try that indeed, don't poison yourself with such an action. Therefore, there are only three alternatives from which you have to choose. Either 1. find yourself a new job, 2. get over him, or 3. both. The second option may be hard, but in my opinion is the best. As you still have a lot of life before you, and you will have to get involved in another relationship sooner or later. You won't be able to do that while always thinking about your ex. One way or another, you have to forget the past time and move on, for the sake of all the beautiful things you still have in your life. Eventually, there is no "path" which I can suggest, except for what I already said. It is within you that you must find the power, the strength to admit what hurts the most about this man, and I promise you, once you manage to do that, you are on the way to healing. Take a piece of your favorite sweet, or a song you like, or whatever makes you feel comfortable and secure, sit down, cry a little if you feel like it, then raise up your head and realize that everything which has a beginning has an end. Sometimes that end hurts, a lot, but it still comes. What you two had may have been good, but now he is behind you. Nothing can turn back time, or fix past mistakes, we can only learn from the past and improve our future with this knowledge. I know it is hard now to trust your heart to anybody else, therefore I suggest against getting in a new relationship until you're fully healed from this. Trust your heart only to yourself, this will make you strong and confident in your own powers, and nobody, not even your ex, not anyone can destroy that confidence. Don't let him influence you, just treat him like any other "acquaintance" you know. After all, that is what you two are now. Acquaintances.

I HAVE DE SAME LIKE YOU HAVED I DOMT KNOW WAT TO DO Y NEED FIND PEACE