Ive had experienses almost similar to these since early childhood ... Mostly while lying in bed. The sensation of getting big and small at the same time was always accompanied by a vision (or hallucination, whaterver you decide to call it) while having my eyes closed (and sometimes even with eyes open for a few moments, as juxtaposed on whatever i was looking at by then).
The vision is hard to describe, but ill try anyway. It seemed as if i was looking at a far horizon (the whole vision is in greyscale) of a surreal inner landscape of myself. The ground and sky of the landscape where somehow visually identical but different in my sensation.
Alsow i had a feeling as if i, myself was the landscape (no separarion of subject and object). There was also a feeling of allertness and a subtle fear.
My hole attention then was drawn to the center of the horizon as a tiny wobbling something was emerging and getting closer at enormous speed, but simultanously taking an eternety to reach me. I also was that meanacing object.
While the object startet to grow and come closer i started to feel more and more tiny. And at the same time also huge since, as i said, i was also the now gigantic wobbl-thing.
This thing was somehow like a giant natrium ball, when put into water, boiling and changing all the time. The whole experience was very physical and there was also a special taste, smell, and sound to it. But all of them totally contradictory in form and essence.
The roar of silence, the taste of nothing, the smell of spirit.
I remember being affraid and fascinated during and after these experiences and noticed, since they have been comming and disapearing periodically during my whole life -the last was yesterday and the one before that, maybe half a year a go- that they allways come in times of deep structural changes in my psyche and therefore complete life experience.
These experiences are now for me very dear friends and i enjoy them and try not to run away from them, but to experience them with all of my attention.
The last one was really strong as i felt also getting somehow getting fatter (my fingers felt like big sausages) and inmenselly heavy like a rock.
I was sitting outside at a cafe and desided to meditate because i was very excited since i was going to meet friend of mine whom i had not seen for a long time and i had to wait for half an our or so till her arrival.
She had just told me on the phone, that she was in her 7th month pregnant. The last time i had seen her was four years ago and at that time we had been sort of a couple, so i was baffled and happy for her of course.
After meditating and having my sausagefingersupertranscendentallyconcreteabstractiontrip she finally arrived and there was the same love radiating out of both of us and towards us. Although we had changed there was a sence of infinity and the aknowledgement that real love and friendship never die as reflections of our own endlessness, beyond time, space and form.
I hope to have encouraged you to be open to these experiences your having or have had and might have again.
Whish you all a fullfilled life in loving ralation to your-self and all there is, abundance, clarity, centerdness, health, sincerity, joy, kindness, compassion, meaning, holyness and last but not least PEACE.
JOn
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by joncjb on April 28th, 2011