This may not appeal to you, but here goes anyway: You're not going to read your way out of this. This is depression. It may be clinical, and require professional treatment. Or, it may be associated with your personality development: being an adolescent is very stressful... you have to go from being a child to being an adult, and coming out of that process as someone with self-respect and self-appreciation is a dicey game. I would say 90% of depression is self-esteem issues: people who like themselves rarely go into long dark tunnels of unhappiness. So to resolve your unhappiness, you're going to have to resolve at least some of the question "who am I?"... and you're not going to do that from a book, you're going to do that by getting to know yourself and seeing how your choices make a difference, how it matters where you invest your time and attention, how it's more important to be true to your values than to get what you want or be liked, etc.... These developmental issues are front-and-center, and they're best grappled with in the mirror. A book may be helpful for telling you where to look, but it's still up to you to do the looking: don't let anybody tell you "their truth" and get you to believe it.