First, I am concerned that you don't have friends because obviously you had one who became a significant other. I am concerned because you need friends and you do not need to be isolated in a relationship. If I were sitting across the room from you, there are so many questions I'd want to ask you about your feelings, about your loved one, and about your relationship. Is this person the reason you have no friends? Has this person isolated you? If so, I am very worried. Or is it because you are shy? No problem if that is it. You can overcome that. Is it love or are you afraid to let go? Why are you confused? Can you use more words to describe your confusion? Even if you answer these questions for yourself it might give you some valuable insights. You are not "supposed" to feel any particular way. You just feel. It is OK to be confused, but I sense more than that. Am I wrong? It is not unusual to have difficulty expressing yourself, but hearing the right questions sometimes helps. So, I am asking them. Finally, what do you mean by "lost?" Are you feeling smothered, insignificant, overwhelmed, rushed, or intimidated? If so, I am still worried and if that is the way it is, I would question your health in the relationship. Now, it may be that you are just not used to being loved in an intense relationship and that can be overcome. Again, it is hard to advise you with limited information.

I meant i dont have "girl" friends to tell them how i feel. i always hang out with the boys. i have always been the only girl in a group of boys. And yes! i am a shy person! some find me itimidating, but i just cant brake out off my shell. What i mean by "lost" is that i lose my sence of self. like sometimes i feel that im too old for my age{16} and like i dont have fun with the people around me anymore. i dont feel pritty. i used to go out a lot before and i feel kind of trapped because i was such a party person that now is like i just settled out of no where. Im very close to my family, but in the "love" department in my family its always been rocky. Like i have never lived w/ my dad and my mom was always working growing up, so all this "love" is showing me is like is new to me..