I would like to add that I am not the "steriotipical" trans, I talk act, dress, and am very particular about what I wear. If you saw me in public you prolly wouldn't have a second thought about whether I was a girl or not because I spend a lot of time on myself (and I don't go back and forth, I am female, that's IT). I just want to blend in, I am not looking for attention with bright neon pink spandex suits and w/e. I just get soo frustrated at fetishist pigs that only wear womens clothes not because they feel more comfortable and more suited to be a woman, but because they wanna get their happies off >.<. I spent at least three months straight working on my voice, recording it to listen to and then trying again, working on pitch and tone, highs and lows of speech so that I don't sound like Bubba in a freakin wedding dress talking all feathery in a low voice like "Hi my name is Suuuuzy, wanna be my friend?" YUCK! I am going through laser hair removal sessions and I am going to have multiple surgeries for adam's apple removal, ect. (oh yea and of course the big surgery down south) But it really pisses me off to no end that I am trying soo hard to blend with social norms for a woman and there are these these pigs that just do it for shits and giggles. Sorry, ranting, but all the same it eeks me because I am like, "I am supposed to defend YOU when YOU are dressing and acting like THAT!?" wtf. I think this is why transexuals have such a bad rep from the public because of dumbasses that use it as a fetish when that has nothing to do with it and drag queens... don't even get me started on them, OMG! Creepy much!? I mean some are pretty but most are just.. no. I myself am not claiming to be a prize, but at least I TRY. oh and also, if you are a transexual and you are reading this, you know the ones I am talking about, the ones that dress and talk like a girl at home alone, and then go to work acting like a male (or female if they are FtM) this isn't something you just do when you feel like it, this is a boat, and you are either on the boat or you are not, you can't be both because eventually you won't know which you are and you will fall in the water, just saying. Oh and another thing, what the hell is up with trans peeps getting pics taken in wedding dresses, are you getting married, I mean, wtf, biological women take pics in their wedding dress on their wedding day, not any other time, once the dress is off, it is stored in the attic or brought back to the place they rented it from. Getting your pic taken in a wedding dress is not fantastic, spectacular, stunning, or fabulous, bleh, it is downright creepy, get a grip, are you trying to be accepted as? A woman or a man-woman-thing if you want to be seen as a man-woman-thing go for it but I myself am quite content blending in and looking like all the biological women in the world, I get honked at, whistled at, ect. and I don't have to wear clothes that are too tight, wear tons of makeup, or do anything but just be me. Just blue jeans and a t-shirt, a normal everyday outfit is fine (depending on where you live). Also, if you are going to wear makeup, learn how to put the stuff on, wearing two tons of your momma's makeup is not cutting it, look on youtube and watch tutorials, they are everywhere! The bright ass red lipstick has GOT to go, find out what colors bring out your eyes, wear eyeshadow that goes with what you are wearing or co-ordinates with your hair/eye color, don't just go "Ooh, neon yellow, here we go!" If you know you look like Bubba, take hormones, and if you don't want to take horemones because you aren't ready to actually transition then STOP WEARIN THAT SHIT IN PUBLIC! It's embarrassing to you, to your friends, to your Momma, and to baby Jesus, and trust me you embarrass baby Jesus, lil' essa will whoop your "Goliath lookin.. I'm not ready to dedication myself to this yet.." ass.