Right now, some dinner! I'm starving! ;-)

Nothing, of course I'm already whole... always have been, and always will be. The same goes for everyone. All thoughts of non-wholeness are just confusion -- it comes and goes, nothing much to be bothered with.

Life and time. I am not an empty shell but nor do I think I am at the peak of what I can be. I will continue to grow and learn with new experiences making me more than what I once was.

Play with my kids. Bring them to school everyday. Teach them evrything I can think off. Watch them grow up. And watch them teach their kids the values that I've told them. And spend the rest of our lives travelling around the world together with my wife. That would make me whole. And hole in one everyday with my wife.

Regeneration of brain tissue removed with the brain tumor.

a big fat blunt filled with some cali endo

to be able to love myself and all my flaws- perhaps see them as perfect too (physically and emotionally) though i guess i can work on the emotional ones but not the physical ones...maybe that self love will help me figure out what i should and shouldnt accept from other people and the way they treat me. I would love to be able to meet people who think and feel as deeply as me and who dont get caught up in the superficial things in life...to me beauty comes from the inside and shines outwards...someone can become the most physically beautiful being on the outside when you can see how beautiful they are on the inside. i would love for the media to go away, and for people to stop taking it's cues as to what is and isnt physically attractive. i think many young girls and women would feel much more whole if they werent't bombarded with fake images of the most 'beautiful' people that their husbands/ boyfriends could only dream of being with...and to find someone that understands this also would make me feel more whole- only because i would know that my way of thinking is OK and I'm not completely emotional and insane. I would love to have the money and power to drop everything in my life and help people and animals in danger, especially animals. cuz they have no rights. I hate hearing of all the mistreatment of animals all around the world and i wish that there was something i could do about it- but the only changes i can make are minute ones in my own home. That would make me feel more whole. I would love to have the insight to see the beauty in myself, and to be strong enough to not allow others to pull me down. I would love to meet a man that can give back the equal love that i have to offer...though i guess i should be whole until that happens. and when we decide to have kids and i physically change, he would still see me as the most beautiful woman on earth, as i would see him as the most handsome man on earth. He would make me feel like the love of his life, the mother of his kids, his breath of fresh air and fantasy all rolled into one...as i would see that in him...hmmm how romantic...now back to earth i guess

I'm already whole, fulfilled is the next step.