Well, I just graduated high school, I have no job because I'm moving in a month and it seems silly to get a job now only to have to quit in a month. My gf and I are moving in with my mother and maybe my stepfather if they stay together, otherwise we're screwed since my mom just got laid off and neither of us have jobs. On top of that, we're going to move a significant distance away, although I'm not sure to where yet so I don't know what college to apply to (you see, I haven't applied anywhere or anything because I didn't know what I wanted to do until well past the deadline for most colleges so I'm taking a semester off). I don't even have my learner's permit yet, because we keep putting off going to take the test and my mother doesn't want me to get my license until I can pay for car insurance so I can't drive anywhere. Combine that with the general state of the world, the horrible economy of the U.S., a gf with gender identity issues, a strained relationship with the rest of my fairly conservative family, and writer's block on top of it all... Yeah, I'm sory of having mixed up feelings these days. Why are you having mixed up feelings?