Well DanDan, stay away from women and other people you need to check yourself into a medical treatment facility for psychosis because there is no reason someone like you should be walking freely among the world of sane people. Thoughts of cannibalism and murder are not normal nor do they provide you with a positive outlook on LIFE. If you are serious you really need to go to a hospital now. Not a regular hospital, but a mental institution. Thoughts of hurting yourself or others and really thinking about seriously need to be addressed immediately and professionally. Don't go and talk to the girl if you are this mentally unstable. How can you love a girl you don't hardly know or even know at all. Dan you may be idealizing your life a little and need to step back and take life at a snails pace my friend. When you feel something step back and make sure that is what you want to feel. Many times the reason people do the things they do is from habit. If you habitually rush into a situation only to see it explode before you get a grip then wish you would have done things differently then maybe you should just do things differently. I know it is hard to change who and what you are which is why I think you need to step out of society and get professional help until you feel right with the world.

Your sick!

Go back to your doctor and tell them that the meds are not working well enough. Or call 9-1-1 or whatever your emergency number is in Australia and tell them that you are delusional and need to be protected from yourself. If you are just playing with us, get off the Internet and get a safer hobby.

you need serious help mate! you yourself no that you cant be trusted. no amount of tablets will change that. seek more help, quickly. and in the mean time stay away from this innocent girl. please!