Just because you think he doesn't love you doesn't mean you're right. My boyfriend and one of his best friends didn't think that I loved him because they felt that I didn't show it. They were completely wrong. I did show him that I loved him all the time. The thing is, love is not only shown in actions, but also inside a person's heart. You have no idea what's going on inside your boyfriend's heart unless he tells you what's going on inside it (and hopefully, he'll be telling the truth). Maybe you're right. Maybe he doesn't love you. However,... you might be completely wrong. If you're listening to your friends, you might want to think about it for a minute. Are these people who know your boyfriend? Do they make their conclusions about him based on what they would do or do they make their conclusions about him based on what he would do? Likewise, are you basing your conclusion on what you think he should do or what he actually does? Here's a quote that may be appropriate to the situation at hand: "Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want him or her to doesn't mean he or she doesn't love you the best way he or she knows how!"

It will never get better.

I think your main concern is your beautiful baby boy. By the way Congrats!!! If he is in it for the baby, then that can be great too. At least your getting the help you need, and your baby's father is responsible to his child. But dont concern yourself with all of those negative thoughts. Seriously, worrying yourself with those kinds of thoughts doesnt make the situation any better. After we have babies our hormones are out of whack, and we can start convincing ourselves of some really crazy stuff. Please trust me when i say this, be thankful for your baby, be thankful your child has a father that cares enough to take part, and stop worrying about any underlining meanings for your partners actions. Be good to yourself, your child, and your childs father, and I promise everthing else will work itself out one way or the other. Best of luck!