I feel that this question is very inappropriate and ignorant to ask but to be raped is an awful and traumatic experience that will change a victims entire life. Its a violation of a woman's physical space and everything that she holds sacred.

It's one of the worst feelings in the world. Helpless, powerless, and most of all there is practically nothing you can do to help yourself recover afterwards but let time heal you. It feels awful.

Well considering I was raped once, and knowing my curious nature I can understand wanting to know the answer. Basically, at the moment it felt numb. I couldn't feel anything, it was like my senses just shut off to protect me while my mind stored as much information as it could. Afterward, I felt like it was my fault, though I knew logically that it was not, I thought that somehow I was the one responsible for what happened. For years I didn't even tell anyone what had happened, whenever the subject of rape came up my mind went into a kind of defense mode, and I tried my hardest to forget about it. I was depressed for the longest time, I felt like someone had stolen something that belonged to me and only me, violently and brutally and without my permission.

I don't know but, from someone (I'm not saying who) I know it's not very good considering having to loose you virginity, possible pregnancy, feeling power-less, and not being aware what was going to happen.

Why would you want to know?

Well you shouldn't really even want to know about that. You should just feel lucky that you don't know what it feels like, because a lot of people, sadly, had to find out.

It's one of the worst things a person could go through. It's degrading and painful, and the exams afterwards should you choose to report it are just as degrading. It will always stay you even if you do heal. Also time doesn't heal everyone like people say. Some people end up having trouble even saying the word r*** after experiencing it even years later.

It feels like they've killed your soul and left your body alive. The shame is unbearable and it never goes away. You stop feeling like a human being and start feeling like a thing, like a piece of garbage. That feeling of not being clean never goes away. I wish when they raped, they would just kill you afterwards so you wouldn't have to live with those feelings.

I feel bad for whoever gets raped.

You struggle, fight for your dignity, and get pinned. then the partner thrusts his penis into you, after that, you are at his mercy until he cums inside you. When he is finished. You feel helpless, guilt, messed up in the mind. afraid of people touching you. You do not know if he is going to do it again or leave you. Here is my story. I am a male okay. back in 1991. One of my friends, 17 yrs. forced me to undressed against my will. he had my hands tied up. He forced me to lie forward on my bed. I felt his penis going up and down toward my anus. Then He went in with such force that caused me to bleed. He would call me sex names while he continue penetrating me. I would however tried to block what he was doing. Then finally I felt his last thrust, I felt him shoot his cum inside me. I never felt so dirty in my life. This guy was huge, He was almost a foot taller than I was. To this day, I have trouble dealing with male supervisors on the job. I wanted to fit in and had trouble with my emotions. I was torn apart by this event. I wished no one to go through what I went through. Its terrible to live each day thinking about the even. Currently I have problems with women trying to hit up on me to take me out on a date. I do not like them for what they did to me by defaming me. I hope others will come forward to tell their story like I did. I know I am not alone. Plus I am a male. Thank God I wasn;t female. Other wise I would have wound up pregnant.

When I could disassociate from the abuse in my mind I could just go numb to protect myself some from the hurt I was feeling and as long as I was not beaten or hit at the same time I could wait for it to be over. But I could not protect myself from the feeling of being powerless to do anything to stop it and the increased vulnerability and loss of self-esteem. A few times I had an orgasm or became sexually excited and that was maybe worse because then it was like I had lost control over myself not only physically but mentally because I felt pleasure when I did not want to even though I hated every minute and that made me feel humiliated and guilty too. Being very hurt and violated and humiliated is how it felt.