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8 yrs old..and I will never consider that a way to go again.
If you mean thought about it as a choice for MYSELF, not just as a topic, then about 14. I was in 8th grade. I was just really depressed and probably should have received help, but the one time I brought up wanting to see a someone about it, my mom didn't believe me, so I didn't tell anyone else.
seventeen when my mother died.
I was 8, my parents had just divorced, my mother remarried and relocated across the country. My father was very abusive, so it was a good thing. Still, a lot of turmoil. Back then, they didn't take depression seriously, especially with children. You were always supposed to "grow out of it". I never did, though. Now on meds, and quite happy with my life. I'm glad I stuck around. I have a lot to do.
When I was little (dunno how old), but I dunno if I actually wanted to die. I was having a tantrum alone because my parents were ignoring me, which just made them ignore me more (and this happened a lot), so I'd want to die just to see if they'd miss me.
I'm not sure when I actually first wanted to die, I don't remember most of my childhood very well, honestly.
I was almost 43 the fisrt time I though about it. It was in the days following the tragic and untimely passing of my sweetheart back in March of 2005.
I started thinking about suicide at around thirteen when something happened.
It has only crossed my mind once and it was after losing Jimmy, I wanted to find a way to be with him, but I can not find any guarantee that I would be and I think my kids still need me.
about 18 when I couldn't face the fact that I was gay.
13-14, I think..think about it sometimes, when I'm down, but I'll never do it..it's too selfish.
I've been plotting since I was 11. I really want to, but I don't want to get caught or arrested for attempting. When I do it, I want it to be perfect, unstoppable, and the end... any ideas?
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around age 7. A kid that lived a 1/4 mile away from me, went to my school, and was only 10 killed himself about a year ago. No one really understood why I couldn't watch the news story. The main reason I thought about it was because I was sexually abused from ages 4-6.
I truly have never thought about killing myself though I've often wondered why am I here
11.
thirteen!
I was a little boy around 6 the first time. I was chubby, short and the youngest of 5 kids. I tried to hang myself in the bathroom on a towel hook using a choker chain. The hook broke and I lied to my mother about it. I had forgotten all about that until about 6 years ago.
I stayed suicidal for years up until about 5 years ago. I'll be 50 in July and I lost the desire to die. I'm closer to the age of death than I used to be and now I just want to die happy. I spent way to many years wanting to die sad and now, even though my wife left and my family is 1000 miles from me I'm happier than at any time in my life. Ironically I now live in a 14 X 11 shed with no running water, but I'm happy, know I have people who truly love me and I have an elderly woman to take care of every day so leaving her alone in this life would be the worse thing I could ever do to anyone.
I'll die happy because I know life is worth the effort to die happy instead of sad.
14
I grew up with an abusive, alcoholic father who almost killed my mother on several occasions, and threatened all of us with a large hunting knife. His own father had done the same thing to him when he grew up, only he used a sawed-off shotgun. My nonno was from Cicily and heavily involved with the Mafia all of his life, extradited from the Catholic Church and on the FBI's Top 10 Most Wanted list. It was a nightmare.
As a child, I often wanted to escape this nightmare. But, being a "writer", I wrote down my feelings instead. I wrote this poem years and years ago. I had forgotten about it until I saw this question.
My Secret
Down in my room in the basement
where my parents keep shame hidden well...
I lie on my cot and I make up my plans
but there's nobody that I can tell...
I've told none about this adventure
it's totally secretly mine...
I plan to do all of my doings
while upstairs, my parents still dine...
When the moon is still full and so secret
my life's precious blood will I spill
and when, in the morning, they find me -
there'll be nothing for them left to kill...
Do you mean with regard to myself? Never.
Just before 8. I don't recall exactly, those years are all blurred.
about 30 years old
i was 13 years old. I felt like no one loved or cared for me, and it hurted.
I was about 13, and my parents were on the verge of divorce, having insane fights almost on a daily basis. I had recently moved to a new town and got picked on a lot.
I thought about suicide a lot, but it was in a very teen-angsty kind of way, so probably not too unusual. Luckily I've smartened up a lot since then.
27
Sadly, 8 years old.
I was in the third grade.
WHY? My parents are very violent toward me. I never had a good childhood.
13 and I think about it every now and then
I never ever have, and dont imagine I will,
Hell of a good question. I reckon in my early teens, when I realised that I could never go through with the fantasy of murdering my sister
13. Not that the thought ever left me. Funnily enough as I got older its only become like a mantra in my head...suicide or not...*sigh* wish I knew how to get rid of the thought
I cannot accurately answer this. I was much older when discovering that some of the things I had done as a child.... involving razors... may have been suicidal. Well come on, how many of you actually think back to your childhood and say "oh, thats why I did that!"?!!
I was very young, maybe nine or ten, when I first thought about it. Of course, I wasn't considering it then. The first time I ever thought of it as a reasonable option was when I was fourteen.
I was 18. To me as much as I get upset with this stupid world, it is never really an option.
i was 15 when i first thought about it, but i was stopped my 2 heads of yrs from school, ive just turned 17 now and ive started thinkin about it again, im not gonna act on it though.
I was 11 when I first thought and attempted suicide. As I get older i get more courage....sad isn't it?
Probably about 10 years old. The thoughts persisted until I was about 13 or 14, and I didn't have any thought of suicide again until I was about 18, and haven't had any ever since.
about 7/8. off and on ever since
I've never thought about commiting suicide.I dont wanna kill myself and die. I mean god gve me a life. Why should i wanna loose it?
Somewhere younger than 10.
I have had intermittent to, now, continual clinical depression my entire life.
I would say when i was 15, I was going through a rather weird time in my life, never tried it, but did some things that I never would have done if I had been really fearful for my safety.
10 but I think about it everyday
First thought seriously about it - the last 6 months or so.
Edit:PS: I'm 30.
I can honestly say that thought has never entered my head,life for me has had its good and bad moments but not bad enough to contemplate suicide.
I was 13. I finally told my family when I was 14. They took it as something shameful, frivolous and stupid. I asked to see a therapist. My family refused, thinking I could just get over it on my own. I think bottling up those thoughts and feelings has damaged me a lot. To this day, I wish I had someone I could have talked to.
About 12, first attempt was at 15. I was shocked when I found out that not everybody thinks of suicide. I thought it was just normal.
Eleven.
12. kinda sad!
15
When I was 8. My mother told me that she hated me, just another round of her constant abuse, & I ran out of the house, up the street & stood there thinking that I should throw myself infront of a car.
I don't know... maybe 4 or 5y/o. It was as my older brother was molesting me yet again. He got tired of raping my sister and started in with lil old me.Sodomy at that age tends to warp a lil boys mind FOREVER.
Even after all these many many years,well.
IF any of you sick preverts out there are considering doing this to a little brother.....just remember WE GROW UP !!It did make me over protective of my sons to a point.
Y'all can be happy tho'......The Pervert spent 34 years in the army,got sent to college on your dime and earned several degrees before moving to Hawaii when he retired.
Ohh,another factoid. After divorcing his 1st wife he married again..his new wife had a teenage daughter that was the spitting image of my sister when my sis was a preteen/teen.
To this day,I still think about SUICIDE...if it were not for my better half,and God I would have punched my ticket looonnngggg ago.
Bad thing about that,IF I punch my ticket I will end up in Hell with the PERVERT who made me nutz.
Hows that for justice??
Nuff Said,
What is so bad about suicide ... assuming nobody would care if you died?
by AnonymousGirl on December 9th, 2011
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Is suicide nature's way of showing mercy? Knowing that if things get truly unbearable that you can just end the pain in an instant?
by KDP on October 13th, 2011
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Be honest, would you rather have a privileged life in a world rapidly falling apart around you(but not close enough to effect you), or
by Have A Nice Day on November 6th, 2011
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"Can I just die right now?" Have you ever felt this way? If so, why?
by AnonymousGirl on December 9th, 2011
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Was I wrong to save a man from suicidal thoughts?
by LynZs on October 18th, 2011
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You're reading (sad topic) but how old were you when you first though about suicide?
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