Your ex sends a text! "You will never find someone better than me you idiot..." What would your reply be?

Huh?

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by Marky Mark on March 7th, 2013

sorry engineer, but he is right. I'm confused too; the decreased can't text?
when I saw your name here I was like, HEY, this'll be good. Marky and I will be happy to hear what you meant, if you would please, thank you.

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by Wiseacre on March 7th, 2013

engineer: did you mean the "deceased" ?
In this case, it is very sad.

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by iwnit on March 7th, 2013

Yes guys, sorry for that horrendous typo.Rapid typing without editing and auto spell check of my browser is the culprit here.Yes, Iwnit is right, I mean the "deceased". My immediate ex is no more.It has been a while and I have got over it.After she was gone, I thought I could never love another until someone proved me wrong again.

Usually I don't open up much about the tragic part of my life over here, but this question left me with no options.

Thank you all for your concerns.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 7th, 2013

Sorry to heart that, Engineer.

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by Marky Mark on March 7th, 2013

engineer? I know that I appreciate to hear whatever experiences you have had. I do hope it is not a hard thing for you to do in the future. I value most things you say in here.

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by Wiseacre on March 7th, 2013

It's okay, Brother Mark!! Time has healed the wounds, but scars are still there.She was the coolest I have ever met.

Buddy Wiseacre, I have got over it in time.Initially my world came to a stand still.She made me a stronger person.She wanted me to live and be happy which was her last wish.She was not even 23 when she passed.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 8th, 2013

I'm so sorry for your loss my friend, glad you're over it.
((Hugs))

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by ★.•*Mcsteamy♞ on March 8th, 2013

Hugs back, Mcsteamy!!

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by engineer is Terminator on March 8th, 2013

I can relate with you engineer. when I was 25, 5 friends of mine died, all separate deaths, within 5 years. it took a long time for me to not believe that every friend I valued would die.
Grateful for time to do as it did huh?

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by Wiseacre on March 9th, 2013

I'm sorry to hear that, my friend Wiseacre!! It would been really tough to cope with the loss.5 friends, I just can't imagine the loss.That leaves us with so many unanswered question and the obvious one is, "why me?".
I was bugged by some deliberately like "what I could have done to save her?" , "Could something have saved her?" ,"Anything I could have done? I mean anything?" , "Did I miss something somewhere?".
I didn't get any satisfactory answer to any of those, but well life is on.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 9th, 2013

those questions did weigh heavy on me for quite a while. I could only find, that it is no ones blame at all; it is just the alignment of decisions that got us to be where we are now. the why me is something I always took as a "What can I learn from this?" type of thing.
I always remind myself, things could have been done, but not nearly enough was known for any of that TO be done at all. it is just something we have to leave in the past, and allow to be part of our minds for possibly seeing things about it with others in the future.

Good luck with this. I know full well, it is its own type of little hell.

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by Wiseacre on March 9th, 2013

That's true, buddy.It's a type of little hell by its own.

We do learn a lot of things from anything that happens in our life as long as we have the desire to learn.Even, I'm always willing to learn from others life as well, because life is short to repeat same things over.

Losing her have made me stronger and now I cope with any kind of situation without grumbling and get things done with confidence.

I mourned for a big time, slowly things got normal for me and finally the cupid has hit me again.I am making my way towards a new phase of life.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 9th, 2013

I'm a guy, and here I come speaking this to you gay like to some degree, LOL.
It does touch my heart that you have found something. I really have been overly confined to so very little for so long, I don't really ever get the chance to seek more companionship, as you have found.
At least now I can actually do things that will help me to keep my mind in order, but still cannot finance enough to even take a girl on a date, especially since insurance will not cover this one thing that is proven most effective for my high amounts of pain.
Seriously, when I read the words you wrote, I really did get a glimmer of hope renewed. though hope is another thing that often leads to far too great of disappointment, then into another type of hell. I shall confront it with gusto, as long as I have the strength to not put into pain management.
Thank you.

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by Wiseacre on March 10th, 2013

Your first statement really makes me go LOL.Like your sense of humor.
Thanks for being so nice and compassionate, but as you have said, "It's a hell of its own kind." When I said, "the cupid has hit me again.I am making my way towards a new phase of life.", it as an one sided affair that gave me a bit of comfy and a lot of pain.Strange, I talked to her in the morning to find out she already has some special one in her life.Lucky him.I liked her truly, because I knew who she was and adored her for being her.

I don't really go for dates, but in all my last relationships, I have always waited for the person to arrive.My instincts told me this time it's her, and yes she was the one, but instincts don't tell you about someone's relationship status.I'll walk away.I know it's hard, but it was all from my end and I have seen worse, as you already know.So, this one is not gonna affect me much.No hard feelings from my end and even after the meeting, I texted her that I'll always have deep respect for her in my heart.She replied saying, she respects my feelings, but she can't help it for the obvious reason she has.

On Friday I saw her with that guy, but I wanted to make sure.The kind of looks they were exchanging at the coffee table were quite personal.It's okay, back to engineering and back to Termination LOL.I missed my stuffs a lot and have been messing around my career a lot thinking day in and night out about her.Glad I didn't waste much of my life on it.I just conveyed her my feelings and found out the truth like a man.At least I won't have any regrets later in life thinking , "what if?" again, which is a type of hell by its own, you know!!

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by engineer is Terminator on March 10th, 2013

what you experience with whatever we might call dating, is very similar to me. time and again, women just do not want to involve themselves in anything with me, as I always make them think too much, and it really does piss some off a lot.
As it is, we are more dealing with sheeple, than people. I am now accepting that I may very well, have to do more to see about dating online. I'm nervous about it, but hope it will help me to find how to not say so much at first, but enough to attract attention from those I'm interested in.
I am REALLY thinking that your profession will get you more attractions than you might ever think. how much have you considered for that prospect, online dating?
I'll get back to you tomorrow morning if you don't hear back from me right away.

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by Wiseacre on March 10th, 2013

I always met my partners in real life.Yes, you are right.It's mostly in my work place or some other places I am associated with.I haven't considered online dating ever, but once I met one of my ex online.That was almost 5 years ago on a public website.That time I was on my first job a year after graduating from the college.Right now I focus on real world and wait for my type of person.I don't know much about online stuffs, but what I have learned from others experience is, it masks a lot of things and there's no transparency sometimes.Transparency in things you'd like to know.So, I guess its cool if you meet someone online, but later dating them in real world for a while is necessary before arriving on any decision.This is my take.I might be wrong, though.

I don't blame you if you make your girls think too much.All my exes are great thinkers and some are very smooth talkers.With time I'll lose my youth hood and charm, but the way we communicate will always get better with age.So, I'm very picky when it comes to choosing my partner.I have set certain rules and standards for myself.One of them is not messing around when I'm single.That's because I want to keep myself worthy for the one who'd arrive in my life later . They say, you don't choose whom you are gonna fall for , but I think that doesn't happen in my case.I use some of my brain while choosing and yes, of course I have a heart.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 10th, 2013

that last paragraph confirmed what I already suspected of you; that you hold honor in highest of esteems, for yourself and others.
the you don't choose who you are going to fall for is proven to be subjective to the ones who do think less than others.
I guess for me, it would be some type of nice challenge to stimulate women mentally. so online dating might be alright, though I do not conform to it all, at all.

how are you at just going out and doing what ever, for the possibility of just meeting someone? do you do it, or you need to kick yourself in the but for it?

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by Wiseacre on March 10th, 2013

Thank you once again for your correct analysis.
Yes, try it and see how it works for you.Even if you can't be too sure about the person you meet online, same applies sometimes offline as well.People are the same everywhere.The only difference is, there's an interface to blame, not the people, because trust issues are from both end.That won't happen when you guys get together.So, give it a try and see how it works.

Actually, I just don't push myself here.It has just happens.I meet several people everyday.Sometimes the official matters are carried to the dining table and there's where personal stuffs are discussed.Other times while being in the recruitment panel, but to be honest, I never go looking for a relationship everywhere, though some of my friends do so.If it's working for them, good for them.
I met my deceased ex Nancy at a religious place almost 2 years ago after breaking up with someone.It was a very nice moment and I really don't know what was it that attracted both of us towards each other.We talked that day, after that kept meeting, exchanged texts and with in 2 months we started staying together, but shame we just stayed together for some 5 months.That's the best time I ever had in my life, though.She left me forever and life was miserable till I met Sara 21.One of my students.I used to teach math for SAT exam to people during evening hours after work.They are the people who somehow couldn't make it to college after high school and want to try again .Sara showed interest in me.Though teacher and student relationship is a taboo, we were both in our 20s and I thought of giving it a try, but I just didn't.First of all, Nancy was still in my mind and I knew Sara would move on someday.There's where I used my brain and kept it professional.
She scored above 2000 out of 2400 and got a call from a good college in east coast.She was in a duality regarding what to do.As I was her mentor, I asked her not to compromise with her career and move on.She did that exactly, though she didn't like it much to go away.

Now it has been more than a year and half since Nancy left and I met this girl whom I was talking since beginning, but to find out she already has someone.I am in the late part of my 20s now and tell you, i got attention from older women, but I just keep away.Not a kind of person who want to go for ONLY sexual experience or some sort of stuff like that.Have been in relationship with one in past it didn't work due to her insecurity level because I was much much younger.So, there's no alternate life style for me where I'll hang out with someone with whom the relationship will lead me no where.That doesn't mean they will all be alike, but I am always interested women who are younger to me.I have always thought of getting married and settling up with someone forever, though I am never been married till now.I miss it every time by a whisker.Hope is still alive.Lets see how long I have to wait for someone, but this time I wont settle for less than what I want.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 10th, 2013

that insecurity issue is something I keep wanting to see about overcoming for many so them, and those around them can actually find some peace for once, within. have you noticed my articles and stuff promoting that? lol
I fear that I will wind up being a counselor to some I meet. Since I still am battling pain and things, I just don't bother at all, especially without being able to work as I would like, no money. I DO hope I can clean some windows this summer.
I am SO envious, you got an engineering degree, a job and KNOWLEDGE I WOULD LOVE, and being able to meet people easily. as I am agnostic, I would be praying thanks you to whatever is/has done stuff. it's easy to see that you recognize that all for yourself, that you had some good fortune to get where you are, huh?

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by Wiseacre on March 10th, 2013

People need counselors now a days.Especially when someone them have no idea about life.Your experience in life could come handy over there to guide them.What pain is it? You mentioned about some health issues, previously in some thread, but you haven't given any details about it. I'd like to know more, if you don't mind.

Engineering days were not fulfilled at all.My parents were not well up with that finance thing.Had to work 3 jobs staying in a carpenter's shed to get through those 4 years.The day I didn't work, I had no food.Had to push my self more for college money and managing studies at the same time was tough.Hence, I choose a safe path.Use my engineering books at work.Whatever I used to study from there, I put that into practice.Used to repair computers and other electronic equipments for people.Sometimes things didn't go as expected.In those cases I'd ask them some more time to fix it.Life too a U turn when I graduated in 2007 and got a few job offers.I was happy that I won't be struggling the way I did, but at the same time, I was sad that I'll miss the life where I had a challenge at every moment.At college I didn't pay any attention to girls out there and all.After all, no girl would have liked a shabbily dressed guy who had no money, but I was wrong.There were a few who approached me, not sure what they had in mind, but they wanted to hang out with me.I had a few good friends who also worked in my mini workshop during college days.
The day I graduated, I got a credit card from the company that hired me.I had never seen such so much money at a time.Then what? Shopping, and stuffs to get ready for a new phase of life.
I guess the hardship I underwent those initial 21-22 years of my life, had made it somewhat easy at present, but challenges are still there, but not as big as they were some 6 years ago.

If your physical condition or health is not allowing you to do strenuous jobs, you could go for some jobs that doesn't require much of effort.Even if the payment is less, you could get some cash in hand to live the life you always wanted.I'm sure you must have some skills in you, so why don't you tap it and see? I've heard there are people who require editors and all for their articles, if you could get hold of them, it will be nice.You can use your laptop to fill in your bank account.Let me know if I have missed something somewhere.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 11th, 2013

thanks for the suggestion, but I've been analyzed by people in Hennepin county, that Minneapolis is in, and they were definitive; I cannot work. what they said is the same today as it was then. my health is just far too unpredictable
1.C-3 and C-4 vertibrea are fused by metal (worst pain that is, bone grinding on bone, crushing nerves pain; had that for 3 years straight; literally lost my mind like 3 times)
2.Type 1 diabetes since 1975; that brought early for me,
3.diabetic neuropathy (I've spent time thinking on it, if I lose both arms and both legs, I had BETTER die, just would not be worth living at all, for me), and some tissues just will not allow 1 or 2 chemicals my body needs, to get through.
4. then, finally, I have a muscle on my left shoulder, the infraspinatis, that is either striated or pulled. I think it is striated, due to how it acts like it does. a pulled muscle would have some things similar, but there is 2 things with it that just do not make sense. I would love for a surgeon to just cut it open, look at it, and define specifically, what it is. perhaps if able to, before too long, stem cells can be placed on it and cure it, (right, as if insurance will ever allow any of that at all).

What you say about your school experience is a little bit worse than others I have heard, but that suffering seems to be more of a good result, than a number of other thing, like kids that have each and every thing in their lives paid for, and NEVER learn much of anything. I have more than witnessed that time and time again. these people NEVER deserve a job with any type of power over others. in all actuality, YOU would be a far better boss, than many others are, I think.
It is so very fucked up that both of our sets of parents HAD to work 3 jobs, and NEVER had a fucking thing to show for it. sounds like oppression more than anything else, but I can't over-estimate humans like that.
Do you have much for any health conditions?

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by Wiseacre on March 12th, 2013

I never imagined what you are going through health wise.It's big suffering that you have undergone, but I salute you for your courage.Like the way you have taken life on a positive note.You are hopeful and that's what matters.I wish you carry on with the same spirit and hopefully, things will get better for you.

The type of kids you talked about, bullied me a lot because of my financial status, but that time I was too involved to pay them any attention.They got paid not only for college, but showed up with fancy cars, boozed and entertained girls preying upon the bank account of their parents.Not all of them made it through those 4 years, but some of them got into their family business.College was a medium to kill time for them and they excelled in it.

Places where I met them as equal is at football field or any other talent event at college, where their money couldn't help them, thankfully.

Regarding my health, no, never had any health issues till date.I try to avoid those following a strict lifestyle and a bit of help I am getting from genetics.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 12th, 2013

it really is strange that there are people out there worse off than I. amazing, as I bet they and I know depths of pain that few will ever realize.
Those kids. direct evidence that humans without ANY proper schooling, ONLY becomes class centric. a huge human disappointment that is.
Thank god there was SOMETHING to put you all on level playing fields.
have you ever thought of anything about making a manufacturing facility a solely employee owned thing? I am curious what your thoughts on this might be. It is a strong desire I have to start several things like that, and make them all employee owned, instilled with higher quality (as if THAT would happen, but I WILL try, lol).

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by Wiseacre on March 12th, 2013

Still they get free rides at places where someone with an IQ above 170 have to work 3 jobs and still can't make it.Blame the system, blame they way education is overwhelmed with money making strategies.My father says, "gone are days when only intellectuals joined the teaching field.Today, highly qualified people who don't get any other job, teach and pass on their broken knowledge to the next generation and it breaks even further down the chain."
Being rich matters everywhere.10 years ago, even at my high school prom, I didn't have good clothes to wear.No tuxedo , not even a well tailored shirt.Let alone date and all.I used to see how rich parents were busy to make their kids look good at the prom.Shopping and all and flushing a big cash pile down the sink just for something that would last an evening.It's okay, they got it, so they flaunt it, but how much did that help their kids, I don't know.
My Granny(Mom's Mom) got me an old tuxedo that my Grandpa used to wear.She cleaned it and I was more than happy to see it.She even asked me if I can take her with me to prom.It was my biggest pleasure.She wasn't young, she wasn't as charming as other teenage girls, but she was an abode of love and affection and had a giant stuff between her 2 ears.

Initially we were frown upon, but she was asked to deliver a speech and it was so inspirational, that no one could stop clapping after her every statement.I was so proud that day flooded with emotions.I hugged her tight and promised her that I'll be a grandson she will be proud of one day.To that she replied, "you already are". Her influence has played a big part in my life.She's 67 now and she lives far away in the same house where my Grandpa expired.My grandpa died an year before I was born.Granny was 39 that time, but she decided not to marry again or get into any relationship.She dedicated her life to look after her kids.That time my Mom was 18 and she was newly married to my Dad.Mom was the eldest of all 6 kids she has and the youngest is an aunt who was 8 at that time.I think She and grandpa loved each other a bit too much from what you can see.Yes, 6 kids in a period of 10 years.So she dedicated her life raising her kids up after grandpa's departure.Working hard for them in the field and in the barn.Shame, most of them left her behind and living their own lives without giving a damn about what's happening with her.A few including my mom keep checking with her and keep visiting her.

I lived with her for quite a while.That was the most memorable part of my childhood.She used to tell me about grandpa and other stories and always talked on moral grounds.She has a very strong sense of what's right and what's wrong.
Whenever I call her, I always talk of that prom date and that motivational speech that might have shaped many lives.

Ah, down the memory lane again.Regarding the self sustenance thing, yes, quite a few projects are in my hand.I'm basically into engineering stuffs so my time is spent mostly at the workplace.Back at home, I have a small lab(if you can call it a lab) where I carry on my research with a few other nerds(don't call me one, because I'm not :)) on silly stuffs that people think are not feasible.Regarding the money making part besides the job, yes, website designing is one thing that I work upon and tutoring during weekends(though, I get paid for it, I do it for the passion I have for teaching).

Hey, I think we have talked on one project.That energy trapping from the lightning.Though a dangerous one, still going on at non commercial scale across various universities.Like wise, there are a few other ideas to tap energy from nature, but at the moment, I'm focusing on electromagnetic field theories.A dream project.Don't know if it will be feasible one to complete in a lifetime, but it's worth trying.It might change the face of science completely if we guys succeed.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 12th, 2013

I feel greatly appreciated and privileged that you shared that here, about your grandmother. what you said REALLY is a GREAT thing to be able to read. thank you more than very much (but no kisses, LOL).
I think that as someone who knows how to reach a mind that is willing to interpret, MANY more people like you are needed and deserved in those teaching fields again. I think you know and see that as evident too.
I AM pretty sure that you and I have discussed things on the lightening issue you are working with.
The last paragraph. I designed wind generators for houses, vertical axis, and wanted to incorporate a small alternator into it all. I could never afford financing to develop it at all. HUGE market for taking from the power company, that which is not theirs.
with that, I had the idea that if there were about 1/2 a block of houses, equipped with energy storage capacity, and was also linked to the power company, and other houses within the area, wouldn't a lightening strike be able to recharge the energy storage within a mile radius of all those houses, and still have enough for the power company to have a lot, and sale and distribute it?
That was 1 idea.
Another thing was how if I also had satellites within the structures of the windmill support, and again, spread out evenly through neighborhoods, wouldn't that make for an almost huge satellite dish (like in the movie "The Arrival"), and also be used for military surveillance of missile attack, and more?
I swear I think I attempted to talk about this with you before, but do not recall all that clearly. what might your thoughts on those be?

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by Wiseacre on March 12th, 2013

Grandma is just more than awesome.The way she has shaped me, has saved me from numerous blunders.Glad you liked listening about her.I'll call her up today evening.

Yes, we did discuss about the lightning stuffs and I think I shared few pdf links with you which has the designs details.I think we discussed the alternators gearbox thing as well.Don't know if it was you or some other friend, who asked me how to get rid of those ice deposits on the blades of the windmills, but some good ideas were discussed which I put into practice last winters for a friend of mine who lives in British Columbia, Canada.It worked fine for him.
That storage thing is the biggest of all b*tches till now.Capacitors of higher farad capacity won't be able to sustain much of charge and batteries have their own drawback of maintenance.

Yes, harnessing power from lightning is a cool idea, but as we discussed before, we have to suppress much of transient as lightning strikes are of the order 50,000 KV and we use just 110 V at our houses.A lot of conversion and safety devices have to be installed.Then suppression of charges and stuffs.A huge investment and also regular maintenance is required.

Regrading satellites, it will only work at line of sight.What we can do is, install receptors at that height and transmit signals to the neighborhood, but building satellites won't be a clever idea as it needs to cover up entire area to receive and send signals.Just like those wifi receptors.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 13th, 2013

thank you for that better reminder than I myself had.
with the energy capacities of these new batteries for phones, etc.., haven't they made a technical advancement and just not been applied to larger products? for power storage, and the use I want to put them to, I keep thinking to sit it in front of me for an hour each night, and let my subconscious try and come up with ideas for improvement from the original design, if not something else. I'm thinking density, rate of decay, and more will occur to me later. I think I will try and find those design for those small batteries too. I keep thinking that the patenting for these is being held up some.
Working with what you deal with, how often do you, yourself, come across patent issues, do they let you know any of that?

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by Wiseacre on March 13th, 2013

Sadly no.Batteries back up is rated at AH ampere-hour unit, which means current drawn x number of hours.For example, if the capacity of a battery is 12 AH.You can draw 1 ampere for 12 hours or 12 amperes in one hour.So, with the AH capacity of batteries can't be bettered beyond certain limits.That's because it's just chemical reaction taking place inside the cells and reverse of that when they are charged and it's just like you are forming compounds and breaking them up consuming and releasing energy.As you can store limited amount of chemicals in a certain container, so the reaction would be under limiting condition.Of course they have come up with stuffs like hybrid cells and other cells that would provide backup for long hours, but none are enough to store bulk energy.So, energy would keep flowing from powerhouse to the houses and back to the powerhouse and losses are there in the way.

I have come up with patent issues and sometimes take things further to fight for it.Actually, when something we come up with which needs a patent, we try to get it patented any how, but end up learning someone has devised something like that already.Yeah, sounds just so wrong, but no, the guys at the panel are not able to validate things, so we have to give presentation after presentation to convince them that it's not what they are thinking about and it's unique.Just like the idea of feedback mechanism we provided where a part of the waste energy is utilized again and adds to the efficiency.Don't be discouraged.Some of our patents got passed without me breaking a sweat.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 14th, 2013

thanks for mentioning the patenting issues. have you ever bought a patent to add some of your own stuff to it? How much did that cost? I bet it depends on the patent of course. and yeah convincing someone of something they decided is not something else is just wrong for a job like that.

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by Wiseacre on March 14th, 2013

I wanted to add stuffs to the patient, but they are still under consideration.I didn't buy any yet, as the petition is pending.They want to make sure that the existing work is not messed up with the enhancement.So it will take time for tests and trials.I keep checking with them from time to time.I swear, I don't want to annoy the oldies out there, but you know the age related ego!!They wanted me to work with them more on it.I agreed.I thought I'll learn from their experience, but came to know that they were actually going to present the same thing in a different way and take the credit.I walked out.No, not going to flush years of hard work down the sewer that way.Not at all!!
Have been working on some stuffs since my college days.I still keep thinking silly.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 15th, 2013

URHG! I HATE fuckers like that, and have run into more than a few of them almost 1 time per year until lately.
I thought that buying a patent used to be $250 until business took it over and got pricing to be something based on want/demand for the patent.

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by Wiseacre on March 15th, 2013

Why don't you add a patient mentioning it as an addendum to patient# so and so.That would keep you from buying it and people from manipulating things.
If you like, you can present it in a different way as a whole new patient that could enhance many others.We are in need of those.I have always wanted to make things simple.To be a useful one, it need not be complex.There are a few things I wouldn't even like to patient.I'd like to keep those to myself.Make a prototype and see if it works.

Keep your ideas ready.You can patient those at a one go, but that won't be a wise thing to do.Give them surprise from time to time.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 15th, 2013

agreed. I do have a problem with not keeping quiet about things like that I have had.
I have this 20 year old almost book typed up and waiting for me to get back to, as some patents are being passed up, like the horizontal axis, over using the vertical axis generators for wind mills.
It really pisses me off that these republicans are really trying to manipulate laws, for this guy to take down his own windmill in his own yard, in city limits. MAN that infuriates me.

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by Wiseacre on March 15th, 2013

I wish you the best with it.I really feel disgusted when the authorities try to twist their panties in something, where they have no business to take care of.Sometimes we can go the way we want and sometimes we have to just accept it and learn to live with it.I have a lot of complains, but again I live in this society.When I think of bringing about a change for the common good, I'd be alone fighting a losing battle, because most others would be busy living their own lives and go with the flow.
Still, I'm not giving up.I just take some momentary breaks.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 17th, 2013

I totally relate with you in that. determination, and step by step. nothing else can really be done, I guess. thanks.

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by Wiseacre on March 17th, 2013

Lets keep doing the good work.Amen!!

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by engineer is Terminator on March 18th, 2013

I've finally been able to save up to get me as a business. I had done it before, but the gov't office got the name wrong, and I didn't have the money to do much about it then. certificate of assumed name, and it used to be $69.

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by Wiseacre on March 18th, 2013

Oh, so they goofed up with the name? They should correct it for free then.How irresponsible of them!!

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by engineer is Terminator on March 18th, 2013

that is exactly what I thought, but when I got the confirmation of it, I was due for surgery, and never bothered, and never bothered with the renewing of it like is needed every year.

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by Wiseacre on March 18th, 2013

And if you take it to a higher level stating how they screwed up, you might end up spending more.It's just like someone getting his testicles caught in cactus.Can't pull it out or push it further.Simply bizarre.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 19th, 2013

oh HELL I know what you are saying. you can't even tell people nicely to do their jobs the way they are supposed to, after a fu^^ up they do.
Crap like this is g4etting to me so much, that it is causing me to just want to hurt people, but I know, too many are just way too stupid to do anything but write their names.

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by Wiseacre on March 19th, 2013

"too many are just way too stupid to do anything but write their names"

Very true, and they hold all significant positions in the society and earn more than they deserve.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 20th, 2013

OH! I KNOW AND DESPISE THAT. this, it is not WHAT you know, but WHO you know, is just a wrong thing that should never have made it far in business at all. though we have not seen business since the last mom and pop store closed back in the 90s.

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by Wiseacre on March 21st, 2013

That's true, but nepotism in some form vanishes and it rises back in some other way.It's not going to change unless people change themselves.Sadly, we are living in a world where most people just like to get things done for the heck of doing.Ask anyone, no one loves their job.What now? They always have an option, but they won't leave it, because they not confident about finding things they wanted to do.Some Bob has already taken the it being helped by some dad Harry.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 21st, 2013

I agree. I think what makes all this worse is that we are all going to have to wind up repeating history, and wash things by hand, kill and cook food, etc... at least then we can defend ourselves more easily without having to screw with unreasonable extensive expensive and corrupt court system.
Another thing that is bad is that this is likely to happen all at once, and within a year many will be dead. I really do not see it happening any other way but brutal and fast like that.

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by Wiseacre on March 21st, 2013

Seriously!! I never get a clue why the court's proceedings are so delayed.Even the divorce cases take around 4 years at times to get finalized.When people don't want to stay together and both the sides have decided to end it up without any claim or settlement, I don't know why the courts delay the proceedings.As if they are handling some rocket science out there.My friend Amanda had to face a lot of issues when she didn't want to have her ex-husbands last name attached to her name, but as the things were not finalized at court, she was helpless.Money might have made things faster, but someone earning just $12/hr and looking after an ailing mother who doesn't have health insurance coverage, I guess that money thing is pretty clear.Her ex wasn't rich either and worked in some sales department with almost same wage.

I have met both of them and they were both amazing people, but they were not compatible.Something I have learned if a relationship fails, it's not necessary that any of the partners has to be mean.
Sometimes two good people can't make a good couple.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 22nd, 2013

I was told once that it all is taxable hours, but thought that idea was stupid for as little it would be, but 5 million of a little is a whole lot.
Attraction to one another really does happen best when the 2 are similar , only about 51 percent, and different for the other 49. a type of yin and yang completenesss thing. though then it would get further in on the soul and fate involvement.

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by Wiseacre on March 22nd, 2013

Not sure who all were those people who wrote those rules.Those rules and not making life any easy.
Ok my friend, in a matter of 12 hours I'll be traveling on a few assignments.Will be back next week, but its gonna be hectic.It almost one trip around the globe and back home.
Still heart broken.Still caring for someone who's indifferent.Hope is still there.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 22nd, 2013

I sincerely, with my heart in it, wish you success in each thing you have mentioned.
Be well.

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by Wiseacre on March 22nd, 2013

Thank you for your wishes, my friend!!!

Back now.Landed at SFO a couple of hours ago, ah nothing feels like home.

It was almost a trip across the globe, but for the first time i didn't enjoy a part of it , because she has overwhelmed my thoughts.
Strange part is I wasn't even interested in looking at other ladies who were paying attention.Damn, what have i made out of me!!

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by engineer is Terminator on March 28th, 2013

glad to hear that the trip went well for you to be home now.
that temptation really is too much to handle some of the time. lol.

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by Wiseacre on March 28th, 2013

Thought the trip would keep me occupied and keep her thoughts at bay, but I was wrong.Texted her before leaving and she wants me not to take too much stress, because of her and wished me well for the trip.I texted back saying I feel her everywhere and i just can't take my mind off her.She again replied asking me to focus on my work and not to bother about her, as there's no point in it.I told her that my care is selfless and I don't need a point to care.I can't do much when she's not ready to talk.

In this world full of mean and selfish people, the ones with evil motives go through, but I am punished for caring selflessly.Never been so depressed in my life.Though, the depression is not affecting me in a real bad way now, it could have.I just didn't allow it.People ask me to move on, but I am not giving up that easy.Moving on is not the solution every time.Can't do real justice to anyone else when she's in my mind.I really can't.Moreover, what I want is, to just stay in touch with her and ensure her happiness, but how can it be possible when she's not ready for it.Not even allowing me to care.That a$$hole has made her life a living hell and even keeps checking her friends on Facebook(what i have heard from her) and in real life.
One of my friends here told me that she might have got very weird impression about men.Something like all men are the same so let me put up with the one I have.It might so happen that she had an abusive father, so she's just okay with that jerk as she's used to it, but what I don't understand is , why can't she just move out of her zone and explore the world?
I don't know, but I won't give up at all.Not this way.She always deserves better and I'll ensure that she gets what she deserves.If I'm inviting trouble, let it cbe.I'm ready for everything.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 28th, 2013

look at the part of what she said. what does that all mean in a behind the scenes view? to me it says that she is relating you to actions other men have done. she isn't feeling the electricity and excitement that the love you feel is. unless she is, but is more concerned with winding up with another guy that she sees as rep[eating behavior. can you see that at all?
In a situation like this, following her advice for a time is best, but come back in a week or 2 and floor her with something large and eye opening. at that point you can asses just how much she would be in align for something that can be more mutual.
I hope this is easy to interpret. what might you be able to invest your time in until the time to floor her?

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by Wiseacre on March 28th, 2013

Not that way.I know her.she's very very reserved.Even she barely goes out with her girlfriends, so let alone guys.That guy is a control freak and if he knows about me, there will be more torture for her in some way or the other.She has given up and just wants peace.I got to know this from a friend of her and even during that 10 minutes of walk with her 3 weeks ago, she revealed a lot of things.

I wasn't that pushy.I didn't tell anything in the way other guys could have.I just told her how I felt about her, and that's all.I just told her that I want to see her happy, even if she's with someone else.I truly mean it when i said that.I really do.I have no intention to get her to meet my ends.I just want to care her and be with her in some way or the other.I care because i like her and she's not happy with that guy who doesn't trust her at all.Spys upon her every time because of his horrible insecurity level.A real sissy little beta he is.I just know she deserves better.

By the way, I have asked her to take het time and reconsider.Will text her after a couple of days.Just to let her know I am still there.Just to let her know that her life is hers and she doesn't owe anyone anything.She doesn't have to put up with that jacka$$ the way she does.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 28th, 2013

deep questions to the very core of how she might be insecure to decide to stay with someone who does not share respect that she is showing. I keep trying to find ways to treat peoples minds as flowers, and which fertilizer/words can work best to have it blossom, even with a negative self realization; from there much can be done.
complicated. are you finding the challenge of all this to be a high valued thing that you have? I wonder how exactly your job might intertwine with your mind, as your work is likely reliant on strict true info, making it a complication that transfers into your life?

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by Wiseacre on March 28th, 2013

I have always treated all my women like eggs, as if they are gonna break, if i get a bit harsh on them.They liked it, but this one is something i just can't understand.May be she has a perception that all men are like the guy she's with.From what i know he's the guy in her life from high school.Her first one.You know the best part? She doesn't live with him, not sure what's up, but they don't stay together at the same place, but they are still together as (well i don't know what).He lives no chance to put her down.What's bothering me is, if that $hitbag has got something that he could use to blackmail her.I know quite a few guys who have done that to keep the women in their life with them and still torture them.Not sure, but there's something that she doesn't want to share.She doesn't look happy anytime.Not any single moment i see her or observe her from a distant(I don't stalk, though).

Yes, I have always kept things separate, but this time i can't.It's a big mix up.I value her highly, so this situation I am through is highly valued.My job requires constant focus and presence of mind, but the best part is, she's in the same company, but in a different location now.I have a hope that one day I'll see her smile.I see her happy and I'll see her with someone who truly deserves her.

In real life only my mom knows about it and a friend of her.Mom's the one who gave me courage to go and talk to her.She understands me.she's very religious and she also prays or me.She really likes that girl from what I have told her about her and what she has seen from a pic of her.But you know how moms are.She worries a lot about me, but I have asked it to keep it between us.I have 2 little sisters who have their own lives, so i just don't let them have a hint.Dad is okay, I can't share these sort of stuffs with him.Never talked girls with him, so can't now after almost 28 years since i arrived in his life.It's just mom who knows.

Pain is there, but its still a driving force.I have no doubt she would have been with me by now, but for that jerk, she just couldn't.He's like a creep and a leech, but as long as she's not willing to get rid of him, I can't do a thing about it.At least, I have made an impression in her mind that I exist.Sooner or later I think she's gonna think.Even if she doesn't come into my life, I'll just be happy if she walks out of the other guy's life and set herself fee.It's beyond love for me.It's kinda devotion.It's hard to find quality people now a days, and when I met some, I just hold them tight or at least, try to.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 28th, 2013

I once had a conversation with a sociologist, and asked him about the tactics to make women in the Ukraine and some European women, and I think right away he knew what I was getting at; how some upbringing of women is to train them to feel more guilt and grief about things than they normally should so as to keep them with men who remind them of how they deserve a miserable existence.
e mentioned that it was an old tradition of that based off of Christian studies and the like, after it came and founded itself in Greece.
Doesn't this sound like this might be what she is dealing with? how she might have been raised, and is trained to go through guilt complexes too much? I wonder if this isn't something else your mom might realize as you talk about it with her. I would ask her about that, what the sociologist mentioned.
does any of this seem to be something of her issue? a lifetime of brainwashing type of thing?

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by Wiseacre on March 29th, 2013

Even we discussed that.I and my mom talked on the matter.Just let alone that socialist thing.Even religion does no good, when religion is pressed upon you in some delinquent manner.Some people have their own definition of it and she's from one of those families.What I have heard is, her parents were too controlling, so is that why she is putting up with another control freak? she doesn't even have a car, goodness!! That's because she gets a free pick on her family vehicle.Wow, have heard of over protective parents, but this is something else.That too, when she's an adult and has a life of her own.

Don't know why she's so submissive.Don't know what's that guilt(as you have said) she's feeling from inside.She should really buckle up to have the real ride of life.I have just texted her saying i am back.I hope ill get a reply.let's see!!

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by engineer is Terminator on March 30th, 2013

it sounds like a thing of living the sins of the parents. a guilt, and hold family in high honor, rather than show the heights that one can get farther and perhaps bring them with. I really do see that the most in people who aren't are off in the mind, more than anything else.
Truthfully, the best that could ever be done is for her parents to wake up and smell better coffees, rather than it be solely on her. I'm betting that until her parents die, she will doom herself to the living that was in her house growing up.
As it is, she would have to keep away from them, and do actual study in some things that really prove to help people. I can check for some things for you to take to her and walk her through, as you read them to her, if you want to give it a shot. I have found that this one meditation technique, could be made to be a guided one. I came up with this meditation all on my own, and found out later that it was ancient practice that I had only revived. If I find anything that might seem of perfect fit for this, I will either paste it here, or an email to you, but only if you give me permission, and I hope that you would read through it too and discuss it with me for better able to guide her through it. let me know. I'll start looking into the site now.

here is something that is relevant for many people.
http://www.livestrong.com/article/560809-careless-parenting-vs-responsible-parenting/
it starts with this, that I think shows something.
... Careless parenting can make children feel insecure and unloved, often resulting in discipline problems and low self-esteem. To ensure your parenting behavior has a positive effect, hold your children accountable for their actions but do so in a loving, compassionate way that encourages them to do their best.

Read more: http://www.livestrong.com/article/560809-careless-parenting-vs-responsible-parenting/#ixzz2P1fz40y3

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by Wiseacre on March 30th, 2013

Even my parents are as religious as hers, but they always wanted me to have my own opinion, since my childhood.May be father's association with science and mom's association with math has let them go beyond their religious bounds while raising me up.That's true, she has been brain washed and her parents are doing no good, but have let her walk in a path of self destruction.

Don't know if she can keep away from them, because I suspect now she's just like them.She has learned just to live with it, rather than going against it.I respect your desire to help me out.I'd love to know the techniques and i do believe in meditations as well, but how could I help her when she's not at all willing to be helped? She's not even willing to see me or talk to me.You know I talked about that jerk who has almost taken her to the verge of self-destruction.I wonder how couldn't her parents see that all what they did to raise her up, she's still with someone whom they would never have wanted her to be with.

I still don't give up.Initially I thought I'll try once so that I'll have no regrets in life, but now I have decided what if later on I think, "did I try enough?".So, not giving up on her so easily.Will keep on texting her or contacting her in someway or the other.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 30th, 2013

knowledge is a thing that can be held in reserve until use is showing, like as your case would be. it sounds like you are putting yourself in to an overly difficult situation. it is as you find yourself, and love is a fucker. You have knowledge available at your own fingertips, but at other fingertips as well. asking is all that would be needed.
I hope you feel that, as your actions and character have gotten you to that too. (I don't know if I sound overly cryptic, or terminal or whatever, so forgive me if I am coming off as a bit weird; I AM MEEEeee. lol)
one thing I try and do is have the reviewable information key on my own mind to go over with anyone I have concern for. I hope that works out to be the way it happens for you too.
how is other compartments of your mind, as I'm betting good, since you haven't mentioned them? I have to get a nerve in my neck burned back, a rhizotomy. had 4 before, I think a nerve grew back. I have to wait for pain before I can get it done, so uhf duh on me there.
I'll be glad to see what THIS day has brought for you.

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by Wiseacre on March 30th, 2013

For that I have to wait for the right time to arrive.Yes, I know what I have got myself into, because she's worth it.You know for how long I have waited for her and how I pick my female companions.I am not stubborn over there, just cautious and watchful and above all, careful.That's why I don't want to take any move at present.Already I have shown enough of guts and a lot of theories that people have framed, won't work always.The weird part is, she shares the same workplace as I do, so the last thing I'd like to have, is a sexual harassment charge pressed upon me.That would flush years of handwork, toil and of course, all that "my Knowledge" could do down to the sewer.

Have to think it from different angles.Glad my brain is still working.All it's chambers are still healthy, but that one where she rests, opens up the doors to others and she keeps wandering here and there.Work wise I'm still the same.I keep learning things and keep doing things as effectively as I can.It will be 9 years past teenage in June, so I don't think the bunch of cerebral wires would get twisted and tangled anymore, though I have never been in such a situation.

No need to ask for any forgiveness.I appreciate you for being so concerned.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 30th, 2013

hey man, no problem. I like hearing about this as most of my love life is just medicated away by crap that has the side affects I need, not the main reason for the pill. 5, and only 1 is for what it is for; pisses me the hell off overtime. I just hope that it will rewire around over-used pain signal pathways. so far so good. since I know no love in my heart but friends and family who are nothing like any type of friend (underminers), so I just can't afford to think about it but for other people. don't cry, lol

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by Wiseacre on March 30th, 2013

I usually hang out with women.Not sure if this is me, but I feel women always have understood me better.Some of them have different plans though.I talked about my present situation to another female friend of mine who lives in europe and she was very concerned, but asked me not to be broken.She has seen me once with a bunch of women, not sure how she judged me, but what she texted me is to assemble them together and do some intense hammering to vent things out.LOL that was one crazy idea, but it got me ROFL.She got me the much needed laugh I wanted this evening.

Have sent a message to her over the Facebook.Hopefully she will read it.

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by engineer is Terminator on March 31st, 2013

that's cool. I very much, try and socialize, but I am just way too weird, if not deep, for so many it really seems. I was once told that I give women headaches for thinking so much. I have always loved smart women due to that, I think.
Do you ever feel as if you need attention of one you love, and are able to get that companionship (not dirty) from a small group of friend girls? I've done that before.
Take no offense to this, but if you have any type of religious thing in your heart, you might want to pray in thankfulness to whatever the hell god is. I know I am strong with some sense of god, but not overly religious (might be another thing that is off putting about me, I dunno).

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by Wiseacre on March 31st, 2013

Yes, i keep socializing with women .They love my company and that has caused problems for me in past as well.All the ladies in my life were jealous to the extreme end, but in time they understood and they too enjoyed it by joining my group.Ladies are cool.Though I don't like to seek attention much, I get it in a way or 2.Just like me eating at a cafeteria and people keep on joining.If they love me, I have no issues with it.As i told you, I have got all my exes except one that way.They approached me first, but at present the situation is different and first time in my life I am approaching some one and the pain is excruciating, but sweet at the same time.

See, to be honest, I just believe in God, but I'm not religious at all.Just for the sake of happiness of my Mom, I get involved in some religious practices once in a blue moon.I don't believe that God resides in some palatial building.He resides in all creatures and everywhere.If we can't love people around us, there's no way we can Love him.I don't believe in the concept of heaven, hell or afterlife for human beings.I just believe in doing my duty without harming others, though some people have their own argument on that.

Anyways, what's up with that name?

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by engineer is Terminator on March 31st, 2013

wiseacre has gotten old, and I think that some fools judge me as something I'm not. I like being the guy in the shadows doing things that help things to work right; a behind the scenes manipulator, and this name fits for that quite well.
My socializing with women is non-existent due to just not being able to fit in other peoples lives, and I really do not like how so many people are really way too shallow. I REALLY need to get out of the US and meet more people.
If I were in your shoes, I'm afraid that I would scare her away, or some stupid as such.

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by Wiseacre on April 1st, 2013

Okay, makes sense to me.I agree with you on that part where you have mentioned the shallowness in character of people.Don't know if it's a trend now a days or people are just like that, but many I have met live a plastic life.it's just just the tits, but they have plastic character as well.They pretend to be something, while they are something else. Possessions, lifestyle, their association with rich and the high class is all they talk about.They pretend to be happy, while I know they are not.These people have bugged my poor parents all their lives and even now.My parents were never financially well up, though they worked harder and had better skill set than most around them.
I remember how they were invited to some parties and put down because of their financial status.My Mom belongs to UK.My dad was deputed there when he met her.Since then they are together.A bit of cultural difference has made it tough for her and not to mention the people, or the relatives from my dad's side.
Things have changed since I got a job after college 6 years ago.I think I have mentioned how I have made it through those 4 years of college after high school and even I was bullied for being financially broken.I wanted to be a provider and help them get through the wretched condition.Things have improved.It's because of my job at the right time and some of the projects that I am handling on my own without the involvement of any company.Have two little sisters and the first one is in college and the other one made it to the college last year.I shouldn't bring this up, but education wouldn't have been possible for them, had I been jobless, or just worked 9 to 5 in the silicon valley without any initiative on my own.

Looking at all the hardship I have encountered, it's really tough for me to forgive people who made it harder.I just can't for what they have done to my own people.Even my sisters faced the same music at times.If they mess with me, I don't care, but if they mess with my family, that's it.

Yesterday morning my Mom called me and she was laughing like crazy.When I asked what the matter is, she explained it like, "you know, your cousin Suzzie called and she was asking if there's a chance to hook you up with someone who's eligible and single they have seen."

I just couldn't control my laughter and asked, "what was your response, Mom?".

I was stunned to hear that even Mom could be so blunt with her words.Mom was like, "Ok Suzzie, I appreciate that, but my son doesn't hang out with hookers, and excuse me, I have some chores to do, so I'd let you go now".

I'm still laughing.

I just can't stop clapping and singing praises for my mom.Lovely I just loved the way she said that.Might sound a bit harsh, but Suzzie deserved it.She and her mom, are renowned home breakers and they were the main reason for most of our miseries, though we never did any harm to them.

If you want to visit other countries, visit Wales UK once.There's where my mother is from and my nanny stays at present.Westminster is the place.Lovely climate and not to mention, lovely ladies.No plastic, just pure natural beauty.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 1st, 2013

Wales. I just might take that advice before a few years. I've been thinking that it would be nice to live in any other country than the US. though for wintering, I'm thinking someplace in Australia. formanchini and Susan_Maddarri and I are all going to try and get together in 2 Novembers or Decembers from now. it all depends on where formanchini is. I'll be sure to visit England for sure, and Wales does sound like 1 place for me.
My family has always been hard workers, but very bad for management, as they, bosses, would see it. my father's whole career, his bosses just financially molested him every ounce of every way. my mom got a little smarter after being passed up for promotion some 5 times; she got into college and became the best medical transcriptionist that most anybody had ever seen. she is my biggest inspiration for me to at least keep trying to get educated while disabled.
For those that do nothing but undermine others and screw people for money as they are left behind; they are going to be getting theirs before 20 more years. I should be able to die as soon as all that happens.
With how most everyone is all so much in screwing over so many, I want to design an employee owned restaurant that trains everyone in all positions, and prepares them for other jobs as they hone their skills in management and other things. that is my primary intent on doing anything like that.
It sucks so bad to just sit here and not be able to do anything about the anxst and anger all that screwing over of me and my family has done. I think you and I are totally on the same page about that.
Maybe Suzzie can set me up for someone to keep me company for a few days, if I ever get the chance to visit there. LOL.

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by Wiseacre on April 1st, 2013

Glad that you have found some companions and that too from Ab itself
, who would accompany you while you travel.Just see if you could get some more who would get along with you guys, because december is a still quite a long time to wait for.

Managers now a days take themselves more seriously than their job.Mostly you would find people who are control freaks, rather than being helpful in any way.When there's any issue, they believe in yelling at you, rather than figuring out a solution.I tell you, I have been in corporate world for 6 years, and within these 6 years I have seen various kind of people.If you give them an impression that you could do anything to keep yourself in the job, there's where the exploitation starts.Again, they can read you and if you are a soft target, then you'll be a frequent target.I have seen that happening with many people.Hence, I have promised myself not to treat people, the way they are usually treated by these corporate pricks.I mentor them and I love to see them getting better.If they can't i still don't give up on them.

My dad is an engineer himself.he worked on several projects, but he stayed wretched as ever, because of his honesty and straightforwardness.Mom being a professor, did quite well , but again you know, it's really hard for good people to survive in this society.In a way or the other, she was always put down by rich women and not to mention the relatives from my Dad's side.If you weigh my parents in terms of their intellect and values, they are second to none who are around them, but finance was always a big deal for people.I have always respected my parents for what they are.They have raised all 3 of us like legends.When we think of love an compassion, we think of them.

I don't know if those who value money above other things will get better, but surely, they are going to multiply and pass on their rotten genes down the course that mankind would follow.You just chase your dreams and try to execute your plans.Even if you fail, fail with honor.It's a thousand times better than winning by cheating.Cheating is the way for those money centric and ego centric people, not us.

Suzzie is my cousin from my father's end.She lives some 10 miles away from my family in Ohio.You can go ahead and let her pimp some one for you(pardon my language), but the woman whom she chooses would be a hell package is what I can assure.Forget days, you'll be the most heroic person, if you can put up with all her horse $hit for minutes.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 2nd, 2013

I couldn't agree more about the corporate management or employee things. I'm glad I will never be a part of all that shit.

You got very lucky with your parents. a sister and I want to learn from our dad, but he is just not one with any type of mind to show anybody anything. as a drunk while we were kids, we all kinda came to that conclusion. since he has been sober, it is very much like he is a dry drunk some 11 years later now. I think that had we parents like yours, we would all be much better of, but that would e true for most anybody it sounds.

Suzzie does sound like she would involve herself ONLY with people who know nothing but make way too much drama in their lives. but I try not to judge, since I would never meet her, I bet. what you say there reminds me that I almost want a woman who almost can handle her own depression on her own, like I do.

I wonder what some funny as hell stuff we can do in here for people. you ever think about that at all?

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by Wiseacre on April 3rd, 2013

Sadly, I have to live with the corporate crap, until I am completely self dependent and become an employer.Work is on.

Things were not that easy for us as well.My dad used to come drunk to our house occasionally, when we were kids.Worst was his smoking habits and he used to smoke at home.He sobered himself over years, but yeah, he is one who spent good amount of time with us and made sure we do well in life, though not much financially for which we would never blame him.What he couldn't do for me, I did it for my sisters and I have always treated my sisters as my kids.Always will.

Oh I won't blame you for judging her.You are free to judge any way you could and be assured, she would turn out to be worse than what you could ever imagine.She's a big drama queen herself and very very cunning.She can very quickly commit any evil deed and turn the tables on you in such a way that you could do nothing about it.She's skilled to bring sadness into anyone's life from no where.Very very renowned for her cheap gossips that has no element of truth.She's jealous of anyone who lives a better life than hers and she could do anything to ruin their lives.She has a 11 year old daughter who's in the path of making of her mom.I shouldn't go in details to what all damage she did to my family, but she has never given up.I'm glad that my parents know her now and they are cautious.She's desperate that she couldn't do anything about it.

Hey, by the way the girl she looked up for me is very beautiful(my sister texted me her Facebook page), but over years I have trained my brain not to get tempted or carried away by such things..The girl Suzzie looked up is just the way I have imagined her to be.won't go into details, but she's a gold digger.My heart is already with someone. Though she's indifferent, I still care for her.

Yes, funny as hell stuffs could be to post some big bOObs slender bodied babes over here.I did it on a thread that scared off some AB ladies, but it was removed, because it was an reply to Waboo's question and the question was knocked off.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 3rd, 2013

People like Suzzie really are the ones to keep in camps until they actually DO start to THINK rather than assume and guess, and claim as fact some stupid shit. we had a woman like that for our family, and boy did she always try and fuck with peoples lives. I think that they see it as some type of helping, but no one can really know exactly THAT they are trying to help, behind so much drama and lies; not a help no matter what is being tried.

I have to admit that I don't really see you around in here all that much. I usually just spend about 3 hours every time I wake up at 2 am, on the front page and home page. what might your own habits be in AB here?

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by Wiseacre on April 3rd, 2013

I have stopped thinking about people like her.The best way to do that is, I think some people really don't exist for me.That's why I have stopped thinking about them, unless I hear something about them, like what I heard from my mom.Well, they are not going to affect me or my family any further, but you may never know as Ohio is quite a long distance to travel for me and Suzzie is more closer to my family than me when it comes to distance.Anyways, she's not a potential threat when it comes to violence of some sort, she's just good at playing mind game, but now she has no chance at all.

AB has lost its flavor that kept me coming over here.I just sneak in at times, to keep in touch with some people I care for and all you 3 gentlemen on this thread are included.Mark is my AB brother, iwint is a great friend and the best Moderator I have ever known.We have been interacting for years and he's the one who's always ready to help and I have never seen him locking horns with anyone.Like his attitude.
My first interaction with you was on some technical stuff and we discussed a lot of windmills, lightning power and other stuffs.I just liked your inclination towards technology and on this thread I came to know you as a person.I am not at all ashamed to say I'm quite impressed with your personality.

Likewise there are a few others whom I care.My interaction with them is generally through inbox messages.I was here to nurture the Since, technology, computers, education, Math and engineering section, but AB has lost it's credibility lately, when those categories are concerned.Visit the science section and you'll feel like it's heavily trolled by weird questions, but I can't really complain.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 3rd, 2013

I can totally relate with you about the keeping people like Suzie out of any personal life. it just means that I will have to do more wrangling with my sister to keep her sane some.

I'm still sporting a raging hard on for getting local city governments to hammer out specific court instances to accommodate an areas code of building ordinances and the like. If I put something on a roof of a house, to reach the top of the tree line, I might have to reinforce the entire foundation of a house, and a few other things. and a windmill support structure with solar panels on it, don't get me started.
If I ever do win anything of any sweepstakes or anything, I very much think I will try and have an England version of an AB get together. I find that the lack of person to person really does leave the site wanting for much much more.
I wonder if Marky Mark or anyone else is like, "Are those 2 ever going to stop talking and the like? we do it every day. I think it has been good for both of us. funny.

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by Wiseacre on April 3rd, 2013

Have to keep them at bay.Ah, I live in the bay area, goodness!! Last time i met her was when I visited my parents and sisters and she visited us with her husband, daughter and brother.The first time she saw me after some 5 years.The reactions, she moved towards me gesturing as if she's gonna slap me.The reason?Why I haven't seen her or had any contacts with her over those years.Drama again.I just didn't have any expression on my face and my reaction was neutral.I didn't move from my place either.That was the last time I saw her, which was almost a year ago.She also told me that I'll search someone who's built like a brick $hit house , so that both of you could be perfect match to each other.Still, no reaction from my end.What she was excepting me was to react, so that she could feed upon it.I still can't forget the kind of pain and agony my family has gone through because of the same women.

I think we have discussed on that structure as well.I have designed quite a few hybrid power sources like that and those are working fine with minimal maintenance.

Marky is cool, but yeah, a thread like this could fill up anyone's profile, but I think the gentlemen might have muted it long back.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 4th, 2013

Suzzie reminds me of a few in my own family. glad I haven't seen them for over 20 years. even at my moms funeral, if they were not there, they kept the hell shut up. I think that by now, they very well might have been put into some appropriate place, as it were.

Minimal maintenance has got to be the highest priority, along with durability. if that whole shebang is going to cost some $24,000 there had better be a whole lot of days without energy bills, and it had better last long enough to accommodate it. I fear what capitalism would do to it.

With us, we keep going and going. others always seem to peter out far sooner than you and I ever have. funny.

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by Wiseacre on April 4th, 2013

I dislike to say it, but they are all plastic people and they are gonna live a plastic life no matter what.Her mom is the same.She still puts down my Mom.Now, it's not financial reason, she's just jealous.Moreover, she doesn't like my mom for a silly reason.The reason is my mom is British and she's intolerant to anyone who's non-American, in fact, anyone who's not from Ohio, but she never admits that.LOl, can you imagine. It's just because of my mom my inclination towards british woman is a bit high.Not that I don't like other women, it's just I love them a bit more, because one of them has raised me making me feel I'm a legend and God's gift to her.Love her accent, that's unique.My sisters also speak the same way.Not to mention, she's very very pretty.Not saying sue, because she's my mom, she really is.Dad really got lucky there.One of my ex was also from England.I loved her dearly.Just the distance and not being able to meet that frequently made things a bit difficult, but we have no hard feelings.

If I consider a unit that needs an investment of $24,000 that would fetch you more returns through bill savings.Yes, things are durable as well and We also have attached a automated lever system to pull things down and get them rest on roof top during storms.People agreed on that design as they wanted their investment to be safe and secure from natural calamities.A bit of control systems and robotics came into picture there.Though I am not fully into the robotics, I enjoy working on those automation projects.

Lets stretch it as much as we could.I have no issues with it.At least we have topics to discuss and we have touched everything in it right from technology to bOObs.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 4th, 2013

there are a lot of people in here that state how British women really are much more attractive anymore. that is a curiosity of mine that I wish I could afford to involve myself in.
Ohio. I don't know much of that state, but I do understand that people are overly stern with their insights there, and will fist fight people who contest them beliefs. is that true at all?

I can't believe how much better I have been feeling lately. I have to test this Latuda, and see if it has rewired my synapses better again, to wire around the pain signal pathways. I was on it for 2 years, and went off of it; did a whole lot, but not all. working on it finishing what it first started. I think the 3 month break from it really helped my mind and brain. but then again, my gut is telling me to not stop it and test it until November.
I wish some shrinks were more involved in how I am doing this, as all they do is suggest the pills to use, nothing more.

Robotics. I love to fantasize myself as a tinkerer; a type that would make all sorts of useless, but productive things. if EVERYTHING were not a jigsaw puzzle in my mind, I don't think I would be as interested in it at all.
I'm thinking to try and take at least 2 classes this next fall, but don't know how I would be able to afford $80 per credit if not $119 or more.
Your thoughts? do you think it would be good for you to keep up with 1 class per year? I find that is the best strategy for anyone that is the best teachers or mentors for anything.

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by Wiseacre on April 5th, 2013

If you are asking of their political views, I don't much, because never cared, but yeah, it's like everywhere else, but people I have met are not as inviting as the Californians.I have been in Cali most of my life time.

I am happy for you that you are feeling the way you are.It's always better to have a feeling that you are getting well.It's even better to keep in mind that you never had any ailment, but yeah, if the pain is there, it will be a bit tough.

Yeah, actually media has always projected robotics in very unproductive way, but if you try to use it effectively, it's gonna make your life even better.Imagine your car being while you are watching movie or wasting those $7 or whatever you pay at the car wash.Cleaning the household and chores done.

Regarding the classes, yes, just set your priorities.If you think that's gonna help you, then go for it.Do some analysis.If you need inputs from me, give me a few more details which I'd ned before advising further.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 5th, 2013

referred pain is just a fucker. I was totally convinced that I had this shoulder problem, but a recent MRI of it says that there is only inflammation and what looks to be a knot in a muscle. I am lining up having a nerve in my neck burned back now; that will help a lot like my 5 others had.
have you ever considered on taking a class or 2, just for you? no goal for the credits, just to get info? what might you just want to know? any flights of fancy for you in that?
I just ordered the new issues of scientific American. from the previous issues, right now is the time I would be investing in robotic arms and legs and the like. they really have come a long way with bionics (lol). I really like how they are getting computers to talk directly with human brains now.

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by Wiseacre on April 5th, 2013

I have always considered attaining classes, lectures and seminars, whenever I get some time for myself.As you know I teach during weekends, I do attain those debates where some noted personalities from scientific society participate.I was one of the youngest participants in some of them.Between all those old people talking knowledge, there was a point where we got bored , because one of the gentleman was just beating up a dead horse.One of the blonde girls sitting next to me had a very nice report on Cleopatra's dildo and I was laughing my head off while going through it.I was like, come one lady, you cannot be serious.She didn't submit her report though.Thankfully, she didn't.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 6th, 2013

Cleopatras dildo; that would have been a funny as hell thing to hear about.
is there anything in your deepest depths of heart, that you yourself want to study the ever loving crap out of, rather than just what you have already studied? anything that you math degree might be able to allow you study in for more? I know that physics could very much use some engineering. any trains of thought on any of that?

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by Wiseacre on April 6th, 2013

My studies are on.There are various fields I have got my teeth into, but I don't find much of it patented or any material related to that.One of those is collision control.I have talked about it in on various threads.
http://www.answerbag.com/a_view/9806788
http://www.answerbag.com/a_view/10047352
It's like you imagine a world free of undesired collision.It could be done through electromagnetic fields.
Another study to make RAT better, which I have referred on my thread.

http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/1646533

My trainer Jenny has called a while ago and she wants me at Gym now.Will talk to you on these stuffs and some other stuffs I am studying and working upon after a while.Another one is putting senses into the virtual imaging.How I should explain it, oh yes, imagine you making love with the lady of your choice, but everything happens virtually.That might happen with or without the lady's consent.It's good for lovers who stay distant apart, but cant meet.Oh Jenny called again.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 6th, 2013

about the senses with virtual images; I recently read a 2011 article telling of the success of having a computer communicate directly with the human brain tissue for receiving and transmitting signals to machines for a bionic leg or arm, etc... way cool thing that will be, and very appropriate for your application should you want to look into it more.
That magnetic field thing is a great idea, and been though on before, but the energy expenditure is so high that it isn't feasible yet. though I probably am just telling you things that you already know.
dam I just LOVE the Scientific American magazine. no better way to read something and not be too underestimated for intelligence.

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by Wiseacre on April 6th, 2013

It's more like holographic projection coming live than any physical stuff like a machine.It's like the image of the person far distant apart somewhere, that you can touch and feel.It would seem real as she sees you and what she does with your image, is reflected in her image you see.Only difference is, holographic images are just images, but those will be lively.That way you can never be apart from someone you love no matter what the distance is.Oh yes, no unwanted pregnancy either, but shouldn't be tried when people are together.

At present, things don't seem feasible, let alone the investment, the truth is, we just don't know how to put it in to reality.That's a fact.Sadly, it is.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 6th, 2013

I keep getting this image of a laser going into the pupil and filling the entire optic cavity with data and info downloading into the brain. won't happen in the slightest, since the optic sense is only a fraction of all input for proper sensations.

here's that article if you're interested.
http://www.scientificamerican.com/article.cfm?id=merging-of-mind-and-machine

It did sound like a lot to it, with only a little tech needed, though highly complex little tech. nono tech is going to be the next big thing for that I think. how much are you involved with looking into nanotechnology?

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by Wiseacre on April 7th, 2013

Interesting article , but regarding that emotion thing, I suspect if the entire range on emotions will be captured.Yes, machines do it fast and efficiently, but also, they behave just how you program them and you can't program them to replicate all human emotions, because we are not even aware of many.

Nano has already made its mark and my association with Silicon valley and the Cyber stuffs has kept me involved with nanotechnology from time to time.Tough, I am more inclined towards things that we carry out at macro level for the good of the common mass, I can't ignore the building blocks.So, yes it's something I would like to keep being in touch besides my scope of work.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 7th, 2013

I just keep wondering if nano tech will ever be able to get through the blood brain barrier and relay electronic impulses if not repair tissues. brain implants for having robotic arm or something just seems a little too invasive, doesn't it?
that holograph stuff with full field of vision is going to have to be tight fitting goggles. something about that tells me that it won't be as comfortable, but there are comfortable goggles, so I don't know; lol.
how much is what you are working with involving the pupil? is it going to be direct light stimulation of the rods and cones?

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by Wiseacre on April 7th, 2013

The thing is, we already have a sensory vision with works on internal electrical impulses, but it delivers to the visual cortex the things that we see.So, if you manipulate things that you see, you can end up with what you want.That's how those simulation stuffs are made and all we need are 3d glasses, but here, the entire 3d environment will be set up for you and you don't need any goggles.Regarding that feel thing, yes, that's a challenge, because you need to make the image come live and that's where you end up using bulk energy.So, it's basically nothing but making that mass energy conversion go alive.I was avoiding this for a while, but I think its high time to let you know.If we can do that, we will be one step closer to converting mass into energy and back into mass, but what about the energy losses and how to compensate that.You wouldn't like to be transferred through a wire and end up losing a finger or most importantly your man hose or one of the nuts, just because some of the energy is lost.

Yes, it will involve pupil and its based on WYSIWYG.So basically what you see, is what you get and no direct simulation of cones.It's just the way I have explained.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 7th, 2013

Working from home today and everything seems disorganized.It's hard to coordinate with people when when you can't see them.As we have discussed earlier, some are really awful.If you pay someone @ $75/hr -$120.hr , wouldn't you expect him to do his job for at least 6 out of those 8 hours? I really dislike this WFH thing, but everyone is asked to do so for today due to some reshuffle going on.People take good advantage of it and some are really missing when you try to reach them through the official communicator.
As a result, someone with a minimal wage, is gonna slog for 10 hours or more.That's not gonna happen.Won't ask someone else to deal with others crap.Have decided, to ask them to show 8 hours of effort if they work from home.A binding resolution is required for the same.Just can't let them have extra $600-$1000 bucks that day for doing nothing at all, going out with their gfs, dosing around with their kids or humping their wives, others wives or whosoever all day.The economy is plunging down because of these kind of creeps, especially this state is is the worst sufferer.Everything is sold at inflated price here.
What's the gas price at the place you stay? Yesterday it was $4.4/gallon for premium at a gas station for me.Average is around 4.2 over here.There was a time, not so long back when it was less than 3, but you know where all the money is going.I have given you a good example of it.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 12th, 2013

I didn't get an alert for the additional comment above this one. funny. as I understand it, this god molecule is bringing us a couple more steps into transforming things into energy, so that is a start. are we able to transfer mat4ter into energy right now? I didn't think we could yet; that it was another 20 years away after the math caught up.

I have a strong liking for proof that a job was done for pay. I made quite a bit doing that before, and each job I did was so complete, that whatever I did only 1 time, ever needed for me to go back to it and do more.
For $75 or more an hour, I would be saying that that are paid to stress the fuck out if nothing is there for them to do. and anyone who I found screwing around while on the clock would be fired immediately. for that much, there is just no other way to handle it, really.
Gas prices are $3.39 where I am right now. and boy am I EVER irate as hell about it. insider trading is now a legal thing, and politics is very much a part of that. I swear the Obama and the like did a whole lot of insider trading before the action to keep prices so high was ever done.
This fleecing of so much while economies are trying to come back is just anti productive, and the shit that is causing the markets to increase is only going to bring about another huge meltdown that is only going to destroy every inch of any type of business like that. at least I hope that is how it lines up.
What do you see as the reason for those high prices, but manipulation of companies and the stocks from the politicians?

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by Wiseacre on April 13th, 2013

Mass energy conversion is something they are trying since 1950s, but it's still all in theories.The only reality we see, is nuclear fusion and fission.The lost mass is converted into tremendous amount of energy. If you weigh the reactants and the products, the products weight less in very minor proportion, but that's where all the energy is liberated.Again, it's nuclear energy, not any kind of chemical energy.
The problem here is, we are able to convert mass into energy, but not energy back into mass.So, what if they transform something and won't be able to bring it back?I am sure if they had the formula, they would have tried it on an object by now, but they surely don't and I don't think they will come up with it in next 20 years.May be in 1,000 or may be never.Innovative thinking has done down the sink and the cyber revolution has dumbed people down.Can you think of any major invention that happened after 1950 except for these jazzy phones and other luxury items.I don't find a single thing that would help common mass.

Yes, that's what i did.Kept them on their toes and you won't believe, when people got the notice, they started slogging at 4PM in the afternoon and I got the report after midnight.Guys, I never asked that. I'm here to make your life easier, but you make it tougher for yourself.Anyways, a deal is a deal.I pay you, in return i need something from you.

The reason I don't go for firing is, we have to deal with new people.Though, they will be technically well up, but to make them understand the business logic and domain behind it, it will take months.Again that would add to lesser growth for a quarter or two.Hence, I just believe in nurturing the things I have in hand, but sometimes being too good to them is bad for the business.Have to follow the hard route.Not that they can't be replaced at all, but that card will be pulled when they leave me with no options at all.Glad, being tough worked yesterday and its gonna be that way for the time being as schedules are tight.

$3.39 would be like paradise for me, especially on those long drives.Imagine spending a dollar more per every gallon while covering over 2,400 miles on Route 66 on a 24 mpg? I end up spending 200 bucks more on a return trip.Of course, gas prices would differ on different spots.I dislike to go to those low priced gas stations meant for members , because most of the time , it's the time that's more valuable for me and I just can't afford losing few minutes to drive to a cheap one .It's not for me I'm all bothered about, but for all those people who are living here and survive on minimal pay.The guy who serves meal at the cafeteria, he gets just $7 an hour and works for just 6 hours and he has to drive 30 miles everyday on a 20mpg.He also has other places to go, besides commuting!! Not sure how he's gonna survive when the economy sucks so much.Oh yeah, you know the rent for 1 bedroom apartment he stays in? There's nothing below $1,000.Even people pay as high as $1,800 just for one barroom, a kitchen and a hall? Worth it? I don't think so.So what options does it leave people with.Nothing except working 2 to 3 jobs at the sometime.
.My family back in ohio , they still stay in a rented house, but a 3 bedroom house they stay in there, is just for $900(old lease, of course).
It's good that somehow I managed to get a house for my own, else the real estate guys would have leeched really good on my money.
Situation is really pathetic over here.I just can't estimate how it's gonna take the toll upon people who are not that well up financially and don't have free medical insurance.

Regarding government, oh yeah, do they ever think before allowing those real estate owners, the gas station owners and other business owners the contract? I mean, what good do they do to the common man? If they benefit the economy, then where is our return.We we still have to pay huge amount as tax and don't get any return at all?Don't know, if government doesn't understand econo

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by engineer is Terminator on April 13th, 2013

I thought that the supposed "god" particle actually got us closer to energy from matter. I also thought that, it's true, the theories were at the point of being able to test it, but it is only that the tech is not developed in the slightest, and the money gone for energy development, research is so maldirected that it isn't able to get anywhere for 20.
I have to defer to you in this, but if I hear anything I will be sure to discuss it with you. that stuff really does get my juices going.

That second paragraph reminds me of an old phrase, that if we want any happiness and peace at work, it has to start with us and our minds, and HAS to include that you do the best job that you are paid for. people and I always argue that if you are paid $7 ph then quality work is never to be expected. and we only need to look at all the jobs that that pay is in; nothing but low quality and not much else.
That nurturing thing is exactly what is part of a Q I asked earlier, that, training in business is _______________.?. it was pointed out that not a single person CAN micromanage without the best and correct training of all those beneath the manager. ONLY then can any management can happen without way too much micromanagement. do you invest much into training other people at all? I want to pay people $9 or $10 ph, and have them all be able to do all the jobs in the place, AND train and help each other to train, while maintaining business efforts, as it need not be a miserable thing. we just have to be sure that the fun or interactions does not over run the thought of keeping some of the stuff in the mind.

This gas and oil shit is just got to be undone, but never will be. what is the most bad about this is that we all know it, and not a 1 of us is good enough to be able to get enough people behind them to protest and get anything done as it should be, a benefit for all. another Q I asked is, capitalism is taking us _________________.?. a lot of people flat out stated that a whole lot of shit going on is either fascist or just not capitalism, economics, or anything that has been recorded well over the centuries regarding civilizations and how they crumbled. I keep saying that what is left; for us to start killing a bunch of specific people right? no one wants to say it very loudly, but there IS a whole lot of people who agree. a real shame; we are all in consensus, and nothing gets done.

Crony capitalism, and no regulations for corporations, as the history PROVES that they will only make for screwing it all up a lot worse. and STILL no one can gather enough of us together for any good measures to be taken.
3 more from each of us, and we will hit that 100. lol pretty dam cool.

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by Wiseacre on April 14th, 2013

That's true.The equipments are not up to the level to get things tested.Imagine you test some particle collision in a closed chamber at the elementary level, but the sheath is not strong enough to withstand the impact of collision and the result could be devastating.So, it's not just the end results we are worried about, but the safety factor.After all, all we are concerned about is, how we all started, but we may never find that out, if some silly steps put all of us to sleep for ever.Regarding the outcome, people are still skeptical, because most of the time they carry out things for the first time.Of course things that are considered threat are very tiny in size and they evaporate much faster than they could cause any damage, but still, any change in proportion would throw things out of balance and doomsday won't await any further.Well, we have overcome that once in 2008 and years later people kept on breaking their heads at CERN and as far as Higgs boson is concerned, though confirmation is sought on its existence, they are still reevaluating their stand on the topic, though they would never admit it.
I am jolting down my points on particle physics and everyday I have something to add to it.No, I don't have the infrastructure or the equipments either.It's not possible for me to go beyond my friend theory experiments and make it into the particle level unless, I am as rich as some business tycoons are .
Still, I'll keep working out my brain on the math behind it to understand if we could put things into physical significance and make something meaningful out of it for real.Would talk to you on it for sure, because most of the time I don't get people besides my workmates who are interested in topics like this.

Motivation is the only thing that could drive you to excel in what you do.So, keeping people encouraged and appreciating what they do, is a way to keep them going, but is that going to help if you pay them less than what their needs are? I don't think so.
They are all on lease and $7/hour is something they have settled for because they don't have any other skills that could put them into the course of profit making, but that doesn't mean they have to suffer the way they do now.I proposed a change in that and make it at least $12-15 depending on the job they do, but ah, authorities!! Glad they agreed my proposal of free food for them 3 times a day.At least that could help them save $15-20 a day, The funny thing is, they don't compromise on quality, because they are being told that their replacement is easy and even college guys and ready to take on their jobs.What kind of society we live in is something I wonder sometimes.While the corporate snobs doss around, the poor ones are butchered.

I'm always a fan of time and quality.Training is something that can provide you quality assurance, but again, how would I ensure that the training imparted to the newbies is quality training? So, I have to put my auditor, analysts and trainers(who are people who actually develop the end product) push themselves beyond their daily hours.If they don't they won't be able to meet their timelines.Again, the system is so crapped up, that they have made a few work on certain domains and they know everything about it.Once they leave, the person replacing would have no idea unless he's helped the person whom he's replacing.It's literally impossible to organize the entire thing, they way it in knitted from the beginning.

So, what to do? Leave it as it is? Nope, I can't.You know since I arrived here, people are not so happy, because of the reshuffle I made.I mean those who are working on particular domains, should keep working on it and get trained in other domains during the free hours.They can't really claim that they don't have time, unless deadlines are strict.everyday I see people grouping around the cafeteria, being on phone or Facebook.Yes, liberty is there, but not on the cost of productivity.Man, if you are paid for 8 hours and

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by engineer is Terminator on April 14th, 2013

Goodness gracious me!! Are these guys serious? Almost 40% of my last comment was truncated by this website design.Why don't they have this word limit showing up below the text area ? Ridiculous, I should say, but anyways, no one would care about our whines.

What I was saying is, if you are paid for 8 hours and you slog for whole 6-7 hours, I would be happy, but one day you come to work and you just don't put any considerable effort, I'd ask you to get things done from other thread, no matter how much you hate me for that.That way I can assure that no single thread has dependency on a single person or two.If someone wants to move out, I could have an easy replacement and guys who join new can do the shadow job and get trained while working.This is a simple thing that guys out there with management degrees with elite institute don't get.

Capitalism has the seed of its destruction in its own womb.I have beed discussing the same thing with another guy on a different thread regarding where we all went wrong.why are we not getting the returns.He has put all blames on illegal immigration.Though, I never favor anything that's illegal, I don't think it's the only b*tch out here.Here's the thread
http://www.answerbag.com/a_view/13275907
Productivity has suffered a lot and people are not as productive as they were a few decades ago.Just because technology is advanced and some sectors are benefiting more than the others, that doesn't mean economy is up and going fine.There's disguised unemployment in many sectors where people are just paid for doing nothing.

Apologies for the typos that have creeped into some of my statements.If any of those don't make sense, please feel free to ask me to reframe those.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 14th, 2013

lol, no, what you have said is cool. I noticed that they cut part of one of what you said before too. not good, when this is such an open download of so very many typing inputs, lol.
DON'T you dare feel any animosity about getting those you are in charge of into doing other things. that is a management style that I use myself if ever in need of it. like you said, if someone doesn't know something before they get into it, the jobs just don't get done in time. have you taken a minute to let them all know what else they can add to the resume, and that you don't mind if they find a better job as they work for you? shoot yourself in the foot in other words, lol? Is there any way you can do as others had done before and gotten more funding for appropriating small bonuses or something like it? that is something else I would do once a person has completed learning everything in a specific department, and is 1/2 done with the management training for it. that said, I imagine that you are paying people well enough. I don't see you as the type to be very comfortable with disgruntled underpaid people to be in charge of. you have more education.
I remember seeing some theory about consuming large amounts of energy as some particle physics would happen, but we still haven't figured out how to make an energy force field that will last, or is large enough to consume the energy of a black hole or particle applications. I did understand that there was a force field made that was only enough to keep feathers from touching the person and it didn't last long without a whole lot more energy. The math is there, but we won't be old enough to see it come into existence, especially with how much economies and everything is doing.

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by Wiseacre on April 14th, 2013

and the capitalism thing. I had a question "Capitalism is leading us to ________.?". most of the answers were of how this is no longer really business or capitalism, with how the laws have made it open season to do more bad than good.
Ford had it right for all business, to pay your employees well enough to afford the stuff you are selling. not done in more than a few industries, lesson lost, history forgotten. a sacrifice of people for higher profits. much more done since a business is now equal to an individual person. I think you concur about that. not to mention how the SEC, FBI, etc.., is so underfunded. that was the icing on the cake.

Sorry. I forgot I wrote some of that to you earlier. lol.

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by Wiseacre on April 14th, 2013

Never wanted to be a kinda person who would dictate terms at workplace, but some people don't leave me with any options.In my previous workplace, where my sweetheart(the one I've gone crazy for) is working at present, people were all cool.You never need to ask them what they gotta do and they get things done.They just took charge of their own task and my relationship with them was just as a friend at work.Here, things are quite messed up and I have people in the team who are elder than my father is.Age related ego.I have got a hint of that.He was like, " come one I have been working on this stuff for 28 years and I have to hear things from a person, who's not even as old as my experience?".
Though, he never speaks a word on my face, that's how he bitches before other workers.Nobody liked him and he's one old fart who just puts his task on others and chills all day.I know, he might have done a lot during his hay days, but it's my workplace and not a vacation place where he would enjoy his retirement benefits before retiring.

Anyways, just got a call from a lady at work for dinner.Her female friend is also joining.I don't know, but I smell a rat.don't know how to reply and I said, I'll get back later.Just don't wanna go in search of trouble.I know they are fine, but still, you know!!

There we are 100 and still going!!

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by engineer is Terminator on April 14th, 2013

I would still go to dinner with her and whichever friend of hers, but yeah, expect to be judged like a little school girl would do.

that age thing is a problem. I would take him for a beer or something and just explain that he has got to pull his own weight, and even show him a few things that would get all fucked up if he didn't. it is a job, and no matter how long he has been doing it, it does not excuse not getting the work done, as he is paid to do, not others, and not with attitude. before all that I would ask him a whole lot that would interest you about what all he might have done.
I understand that will be its own hell, so I should just keep quiet as there is more to the intricacies of it all than I can imagine. I want to impart some wisdom of any type , but I think you do know that he will likely only remain difficult, huh?

I had to give you the privilege to make the 100 comment there, lol. it is pretty cool that it is just you and I commenting. 1 time, I had this 1 thread that went to 112, and it was all just kid stupid shit, my mistake to get involved in that crap, lol.

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by Wiseacre on April 14th, 2013

The problem here is, if was some restaurant or any place where we could go, I'd have certainly gone, but it's her house.She's a lady in her late 30s and I have deep respect for her, but she's single and you know what roles hormones play to affect our moods.Her friend is someone who met me at work once and they all are planning to prepare some exotic recipe is what I have heard and "exotic recipe" oh my my, could go anyway.Not that, I am being ungrateful here, but just don't want to land in any sort of mess as I know I'm in my prime right now.She has given some indications in past, so , I just keep away as much as I could.The girl I am crazy about, is still in my mind and thankfully, she's saving me from doing a lot of blunders.
No buddy, I am no saint and don't wanna be one, but at least for the time being, I just don't wanna do something, which I'll regret later on.

I tried that with him.Took him out on a coffee break.Asked him that his experience and my energy could take both of us places and we ned to work as a team rather than against each other.It seemed he agreed and I see some change after that, but there are certain things, he couldn't help I guess, but anyways, I have other plans to make things work as well.I know he needs some help and I willfully extend help, but there's no way I'd allow him to chill.To be honest, he's one fine guy who has complete command over Java(the programming language) and I need to leverage him to polish other people as well.Woking 28 years on Java is one heck of an experience, but in my 6 years of experience, I have worked on more than 10 programming languages, so I have more flexibility and my scope to understand things is wider.I know his weakness.He just doesn't want to leave Java.If he gets more cocky about something tomorrow, he'll be asked to work on Unix , Perl or HTML.I'm sure that would be nightmare for him.

Thanks for allowing me to hit that 100 mark.Yes, I have never been involved in such a long conversation besides some technical threads, but this one contains a big part of me and I love it.My future girlfriend/wife is surely going to be jealous of you for knowing so much about me.LOL

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by engineer is Terminator on April 14th, 2013

I really do envy that you were able to make such great strides in the field of work that you do. I myself, just HAD to screw up a lot of my hard work with mistakes with diabetes, and a mistake or 2 with drinking too much. but it all would not have mattered with the result of the last 10 years, from the shit my brother did to me as a kid, pile-driving me.
I have been using massage therapy again, so I might be able to stop a medicine, but really should wait another month or 2 before I do. my shrink and I are trying to realign my brain to be able to accommodate the intensities of pain I get. haven't had a bad case for almost 3 weeks now. and that an uhf duh of effort I have put into it.
I wonder if your girlfriend would have much interest in reading all of this, as it sits here like it does. I myself am going to review a lot of it, just to be sure of what is disclosed.
I have to admit, your management skills really are better than mine were, but I do have some anger involved in mine, which I now think I have under control. I did myself proud to not have a single mark from the health department for my last job I had; kitchen manager. the people who worked under me all had the same job for a little while, and it really pissed the boss off that her husband, the owner, gave me a $2 raise for that health department thing. it's not just that guy who will work against you, but you have it right, in making the tasks to complete a priority, and to get it done in time, as far as I know. it is really cool that you did take him out like that. maybe it might be time to buy him and a few others a beer or 2? I knew 1 manager that had that be 1 mandatory thing for him to do for his staff, at least 1 time every 3 months. I do hope it all works out for you there.
I'm glad that we are getting the same thing out of this; a little compassion and understanding. sounds wussy, but isn't lol.

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by Wiseacre on April 14th, 2013

I still think I haven't achieved much.I gotta do a lot in coming years.Gotta do something that's gonna help common people, making their lives better.

You have had stiffer challenges before you and the health one would definitely add up, so I applaud your integrity and fighting spirit.You have a positive outlook and that's what matters.With that kinda attitude towards life, I'm sure you would gradually move towards things that you are aiming for at present.
Did that childhood incident with your brother do any major damage to you in someway?Just want to know, If you don't wanna share, it's okay.

I don't know, but all my girls were interested in knowing more about me and even they read a lot of things that I have written over the internet or in my notes.I don't know if it's a coincidence, or there's something I just couldn't figure out, but their curiosity never bothered me.If my ex were alive, she would sit down here and ask me numerous questions like, "Hey, you never told me that!!" She was cute!!She'd never allow us to talk and keep talking a lot herself.I freaking miss her.If there's a way to get her back, I would do anything to get her. few days ago i was watching a Vandamme movie called "time cop" and loved the concept.he went back in time to bring back his dead wife.Ah, it hurts now.

It's not like I do better than what you did.You just did you you have to and your situation might be much tougher than what mine is.I don't really aspire to go high up the management ladder as it's drifting me away from technology.Technology is what I am interested in.

Instead of buying that guy something, I'm thinking more about giving him a performance bonus, or an award of recognition, that would boost him up and crumble his ego.Well, will see at the end of quarter in june.

Lets keep this going and feel free to share anything you like.Trust me, I would never judge you for anything.I have liked everything that you have typed so far and most importantly, I appreciate your willingness to help me.You have given me some pretty good suggestions regarding how to handle the resources.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 14th, 2013

a whole lot of people I know face to face really try and make me feel as if I am dictating something, when all I ever do, is as I have done here, suggestions with questions. it seems a whole lot of people are just way to insecure, and deciding to be stupid rather than think to overcome much.
thank god that you interpret it as intended. I really do appreciate hearing that I am not full of shit, as no matter what, people in my family would overly denounce each other in a petty idiot fucking way, thanks to my father. he really is anti good in his entirety, even while I am caring for him.
PERFECT idea to give him recognition he might deserve. and right now, any type of bonus would be appreciated by anybody.
I like that idea of a woman who doesn't want to talk all the time. I always fantasize of just holding a woman and snuggling, no talking. but even then, I would prompt her to talk; I dunno. "time cop" was a pretty decent movie. I had a whole lot of friends die separate deaths, and that is tough enough. had I lost a lover, I think I would have broken down much more than I had when it all happened. I think that after a 5 year period, sharing something like this with a woman would reinforce a relationship, though that would depend on the woman too. that post honeymoon phase, at about 2 years in relationships is always a problem for me. I keep thinking that it is due to my being diabetic and my life expectancy is only another 20 years, though I always thought it would be a lot less, as family and the medical profession had always said. to hell with them all.
I want to leave this part with this.
for all the knowledge and wisdom that there is, even a lifetime will never be enough to know a small fraction of it. with that, even progressing 1 millimeter IS a whole lot more than others allow for themselves. I hope it is easy for you to remember that when you get too down or whatever. a little IS REALLY a whole frigging lot

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by Wiseacre on April 14th, 2013

Yes, they are just insecure to get out of their cocoon.I see how much tough it might have been for you, to struggle with so many things with almost no support from anyone at all.Not even from the family you care so much for.Still, you are standing so tall and strong.Trust me, it's not a problem with you at all.They just couldn't understand you.That's all.It's their loss not yours.

Nancy used to talk a lot, but at the same time she was a great listener.She was full of new ideas and very smart, so I never allowed her to stay silent and never interrupted while she was speaking.She always brought the good out of me and believed in me more than anything else.We also had out silent times, talking nothing, just communicating through our eyes and souls.

It's never easy to deal with the death of a loved one.In your case you lost many friends, in my case I lost the dearest of all.don't listen to people who talk negative.Those docs know nothing at all.Trust me, they are just good businessmen who are into money making business of the cost of others health, but for the sake of your well being just follow the instruction and go for what they prescribe.Just think positive and there's every chance that you could live much beyond what's expected and that too being healthy.Science is getting advanced everyday and in a matter of 5 years or even earlier, you could just get much better than before.

Keep the pursuit on.Keep learning.You have the treasure of knowledge, so keep adding to it.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 15th, 2013

until I read this, I never realized how comforting it was to get encouragement as you have proposed it.
As I sit here wanting to help others, it just hurts me that so very many abuse their minds, and how they refuse to see things that are right in front of them. thinking back, there is still people in my life that I have inspired, and allowed to be close to me, in that they are so very misunderstood. an open mind. far more valuable than business would ever allow anyone to think.
Nancy really does sound like she would have been perfect for a life companion. as you describe her, I feel a little relation with her, as I am similar to her. or hope that I am, at least.
When next you work, and talk with your own bosses, let me know how that bonus type thing works out for getting him it. I fear that business will only be business, and that they will say as millions of others say, "Their paycheck is bonus enough". dumbfucks that say it.
Rest well, and keep that chin held high, as you dodge the blows life throws.

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by Wiseacre on April 15th, 2013

I know how it feels when you care so much for some and try to help them, but in return they just don't give a damn.In time some might understand and some won't, but keep that zeal of helping others alive.As said earlier, you did nothing wrong, so you don't have to be ashamed of anything.

Nancy was a sweetheart and just like me, she always put others before her.In many ways she was like me and yes, I see our ideologies match a lot, so she's like you as well.Once she cried for hours seeing someone die at hospital.That person wasn't related to her in anyway, but when she was okay during the evening, I was like, "What's up Princess !!You drained so many of those precious pearls today for someone you never known?". She was like, "Baby, he must be something to someone and he might have suffered a lot, would you help me find his people?".I promised her I would try, but till now, I couldn't.he left me no clue to it.Nancy was the sweetest I have ever met.She always put other before her.You'd find her at foster homes or at old age homes helping people out there right after college while girls of her age would be partying hard or chilling out with friends.
By the time I return from work, she'll be preparing something for me referring her cook book.My Mom loved her just like she loves her girls.Why wouldn't anyone? She was so adorable and it's not possible for anyone to know her and not like her.

Once on her birthday I took her to a jewelry shop to get her some diamonds, but she asked me to get her a small box of chocolate and get some stuffs for the old, diseased and the homeless if i want to.You have no idea how much that touched my heart.Everyday I fell for her.More I explored her, the newer she seemed and more i loved her.when she was sick, I used to carry her to places she always wanted to go.I miss her terribly, but she always wanted to see me happy and not broken.She told me that she will be watching me all the time.I hope she really does and sees how much my life has gone better just because of her.

I know it's not easy to get that bonus thing through, but I'll somehow convince them to keep the motivation factor alive.Okay buddy, gotta go to work tomorrow.See ya tomorrow evening.Take good care.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 15th, 2013

It almost made me shed a tear reading about that. this right now is exactly how the grieving process repeats itself for us, and almost all others. Isn't it a nice reminiscing? I like and appreciate it.
What word for the day can I play with in AB here tomorrow?

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by Wiseacre on April 15th, 2013

I agree, going down the memory lane could be painful as well as soothing.I always recollect things from past and then I realize the truth in her words when I asked her not to leave me like that.She was in her last few days and she was like, "Baby, it's better to be loved and lose it, than never being loved and I love you and I know you do as well.I could leave happy, please let me go".She didn't want to leave me I know, but the pain was excruciating and she couldn't help it.Still she never show any sign of pain on her face and always smiling.She was snuggled in my arms all the time and all that what I did, is hold her all the time hoping for some miracle.For those few weeks, I just couldn't work on focus on anything else.I just had no idea what to do when she wasn't in my arms.
After her departure, my world came to a standstill.It was end of pain from one end and beginning from another. As said earlier, I literally hated myself for not able to keep the sweetest girl in the entire world alive.I felt as if I missed somewhere , even though I did all possible effort to save her putting everything on line.

I am happy, i got more disciplined and I developed more respect for mankind after she came to my life.she saved me in numerous ways from various pitfalls.For what I am today, a big part of that is just because of her.We were so crazy that we even named our kids snipping parts of our names and joining.The only happiness I couldn't give her.She wanted to be a mother.That's her only wish that remained unfulfilled.All she wanted was a son like me and all I wanted was a daughter like her and we fought over that and then she was like, "Okay, we will have twins, a boy like my baby and a girl like me, ok?" When she was ill I proposed her many times for marriage, but she didn't agree.She knew she was leaving me, so what she said was, "I know I can't give you a girl, baby, but if there's something like rebirth, I'll be born as your daughter, please name her Nancy".My heart wrenched when she said that.
Gawd, I am again reading the diary and watching her videos that I shot while she was cooking stuffs for me.Glad I have preserved something that belongs to her.Her dresses still has her smell and I can sometimes feel her in the house.It might just be my imagination, but I like living that way.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 15th, 2013

how many years has it been since her passing? it sounds like you are in the reminiscing stage. thank goodness you are past the anger stage of grief. 1 thing I have always recommended to people is to have an air proof bag, and seal an outfit of hers in it to keep the smell. this will make that be 1 thing for reminiscing in later days if not years. if you ever find another woman to devote yourself to, it will cause a little turmoil, but having that will be a good thing, unless that girl is an insecure jealous type.

I think I would be totally insane or in prison if I didn't believe there was something after death. what are your thoughts on that? which religion are you?

My heart has grown weary of the sadness of this, and remembering all the dead in my own past. I have been told that I would be a great therapist, and I do think I would be 1 for the bereaved. it's a real bitch that I can't get the schooling while disabled like should be good to do, and is not allowed by the US government for anyone on disability.

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by Wiseacre on April 15th, 2013

She passed just 19 months ago.It was just a couple of months after her 22nd birthday.I was more like broken inside and out.Nothing seemed to comfort me and this time last year my condition was pathetic even months after she passed, though at times I tried a lot to smile through tears.Tried to cover up my sorrows.I still preserve her clothes and I sleep holding those the days when I don't feel good.I feel as if she's wiping away my sorrows.I know, the girl I'll have in my life, may not take my respect for my ex in a positive way, but I'll try to convince her that she's no more and all I have in my life is some token she has left.That's not gonna lessen my love for her anyways.Hopefully, she will understand, else I'll try to convince in other ways and I'm sure I can.

Well, I do have a religion, but not a very religious type.I believe in certain things and regarding others I stay neutral as I don't have any means to prove those.

Yes, i do believe that you could be a healer for many.Especially for those who are broken, because you have gone through all miseries and emerged a winner.Try home schooling, if you can afford that, else do some distance course on it, if you are interested.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 16th, 2013

In the last 5 years, social security has dictated that anyone who is disabled, and able to go to school at all, is not disabled. You should see the sorrow of such stupidity applied to us disabled. never once have I ever been able to go to school full time. I got an AA in Lib ed., and a year of accounting, all part time, and chopped up in 7 years. a whole lot of wasted effort, but good knowledge was gained, and is used.
In Minneapolis, I really did become a talk therapist for a some people. 1 has bipolar; we still talk. another had drug and anger issues; he told me that without me, he would never have gotten to such a dam good parent as he is now. his kid and step kid are excelling. th estp kid is A+ in all grades and classes. his 2 year old is now able to count to 40, and is speaking as if he always knew how to talk. DAM cool that all is. I'm glad to still be part of it all.
It seems that I have the rewards for it, just not the degree, or pay, or much else.
1 thing I did after a 4th friend died was to give up as many possessions as I could; the absence of the reminders did help a lot. but as it seems, You are right in the ideal way of dealing with the grief, if there is an ideal way for it.

Do you play darts or pool at all? what do you think we would do if we got together for a beer and joint? does you job stick their nose in your urine enough to be a bad thing?

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by Wiseacre on April 16th, 2013

Sometimes I think, are those laws framed by a bunch or kids who just got lose from detention or something.I don't see a point that could make sense.I don't know how on earth a disabled person won't be disabled if he makes it to the school.That way, they are just letting loads to talent go waste.

See, you did help so many people out there where you were in Minneapolis.You not only helped those guys, but see how their future generations got benefited.I know how great you might be feeling being a part of all that.Most people on this earth live a common life like normal people, but a very few live it for others and they make a lot of difference.I see you as one of them.Nancy always believed in living life or at least a small part of it for others.That's what has got us together and I was very impressed when i met her for the first time by her thought process and her actions.

Going away from reminders is a way to keep thoughts at bay, but for me, it would go worse.I wanted to keep her stuffs away.Game some to my mom to preserve, but again in a day or two I drove miles to get her things back.I felt as if I pushed her away keeping her stuffs away from me.That added to the uneasiness and the discomfort.

I do play a lot of outdoor games.I go for hiking, rugby is something that has held my interest since high school.Sometimes I prepare myself for MMA at the country level.After Nancy was gone, that anger and frustration phase is the one where I punished myself the most.Ran 2 times than i used to and worked out like machine.The intensity is still there, but the anger is no more.

Yes, I play dart and pool, but I am a straightedger since the beginning.No, I didn't join any of those groups, just preferred to stay one, but I have no problem with people who follow a non straight edge life style.Nothing religious about it, just a personal choice and my job has nothing to do with it.

If we hangout, yes, you can have all the beer you want lol and I'll have my glasses of fruit juices.Would play pool while discussing string theory.That would be cool i guess.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 16th, 2013

I wonder just how many comments total they will let us get to? I'm thinking that the extent of your last post is probably right on the edge of being cut off huh? I was wondering if they decreased how much we put in this due to how much we have commented.
that going back to get the things of Nancys. when you said that, I remembered having severe bad depression stage when I did it, but knew to just power through it, as I knew the grieving process by then. with you, I think it is fine that you handled it that way. taking time for that is the best thing to do for it. good job for you there.
I wonder, is there any sober bars near where you live? that could work if they have pool and darts. I don't need to drink, but a fact with either type of diabetes is to just have 1 shot per day, as the alcohol loosens up the membranes for things to pass through easier.
It is funny. I have seen 3 news articles showing that the disabled and the elderly can be far better than any others in a work force. and NOONE believes them or puts them to use. and that isn't even mentioning that since the beginning of time, the elderly and disabled have always proven to rise to the challenge, much better than someone not with those things.
1 thing is that I wonder if all the love and attention I give out is what I hope to get in return. I've been getting quite a few compliments, but I have some thing that just won't let them sink into my brain that much. I fully know that I do not deserve to feel the guilt that I do (though there may be 1 or 2 things I should feel that guilty about), but I can only trace most of my shame and guilt to my family being overly hard on me, as they thought I was too weak to go into society, fucking idiot fool judgers. they are all still like that.
It does sound real good, to just have a beer or 2 and shoot pools, if not roll one and have fruit juices; that does sound good too.

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by Wiseacre on April 16th, 2013

Ah, i don't know how much they have eaten up from our comments.Well, fuk them.LOLMostly our comments are mammoth ones.If it were a liner or two, we could have hit 10k mark by now..I just loved talking on this thread.It's just for Nancy that we talked so much over here , as the beginning of the thread was initiated because of her..If she's watching us from somewhere, she must be smiling for sure.Thanks for acknowledging my step to deal with grief.

I have no issues with people drinking while hanging out with me.generally i am the sober one among the group of people I hang out with and even I had times when I had to drop 7 of them back home, trip by trip because they were all high and out.There were ladies in the group and I never wanted them to end up with some a$$hole in a motel room in that state , as there were wolf pack awaiting opportunities like that.I'm no savior, but I don't want people to land in trouble, just because they didn't drink responsibly.

I know your physical condition and alcohol is just like another medication for you, so not an issue.I'll arrange stuffs for you and who needs a club while we can have pool table and dart at our backyard or living room itself.There will be others to give us company as well.

Going back to Nancy's topic, yes, I still believe I can't make any better than her, because I don't think anything better exists.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 16th, 2013

1 thing about love that I have known and dealt with, is that the love we have for a person will never be the exact same for another person, but can be just as intense. if I remember right, some movies even mention that.
but yeah, you are likely 1 stage, a 1/2 year away from probably being able to have an effective first date. is that what you see and feel, or do you feel like the love you had with Nancy is something that can last forever, if not at least for 5 years?

If we do ever manage to meet, PLEASE don't go too far out of your way to accommodate me.
have you ever had strong dreams that you remember, and pieces, if not all of it, happened in real life? when that happened to me, after I had died, I started having dreams of the future, but in them, the personality I had was the personality that was the age I was in, not the age I was in in the dream. that caused 3 different versions (1, age 13, 1, age 18, and another age 24) of possible futures, with only little differences. forgive me for going off on something, but I write this now to prove something, that in 2 Decembers from now, I will win a large amount of money, and be able to visit. this occurrence happened in all 3 variations of the dreams. what's more, is that my best friend told me that his dad told him, I would win the publishers clearing house 1 day. I can't wait for 2 Dec. from now to prove it. my family think I'm crazy for it all. I may be, but shall wait to see what happens, before I make that a judgment of myself.
what do you think? am I showing some batshit crazy now or something? LOL

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by Wiseacre on April 17th, 2013

I don't know if that's true, but my love for Nancy has never lessened with time.I have been alone for an year and half, and the love didn't lessen.She was very precious to me and after death, I feel she was even more valuable.Yes, if I don't get involved with any other person, my love for her will remain the same.I believe it's we who make the decision, but even with other girl, my love for her will never die out.It will transform into a kind of devotion which has already started.

Oh that won't be a problem at all, buddy!It will be a great pleasure to provide you some company.A person like you can't be an inconvenience to anyone.Yes, I have had dreams, but some i forget and some I remember.Sometimes I have strange dreams about castles and medieval era.Sometimes flying to high up the sky and something that others would find crazy.One of my friends studies dreams and their connections with reality.She can put you to sleep and study your brains activity, though she can't tell what exactly you saw in your dreams, but her estimates would be close enough to stun you.

I'd like to hear more from you on those dreams and your ambitions.I don't find it crazy at all.I am just more curious.Would you care to elaborate a bit on those?

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by engineer is Terminator on April 17th, 2013

Knock knock.It's still alive!!!

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by engineer is Terminator on April 20th, 2013

cool. I looked for this, but I had so many alerts that they all weeded this line out.
It's frigging spring, and I have no one to share holding each other with. kinda making me sad, if not depressed. I have been using my mind tricks on it, but it always comes back around every hour or so.
That girls eyes and face really was things of a pure person, not the fake crap. thanks for that.

huh? I never did receive an alert for that last post. glad to read it now.
the dreams really did confuse the shit out of me for quite a while. it was when I held a few people back to save their lives that they got to me more, and how they really did show a variation of the future. the dreams about saving those people, there were 3, and only 2 versions had them do as they did, so I was never sure what to expect.
other things in the dreams really have happened, as they had in all 3 variations (the time I dreamt them while age 13, and my personality of that age was impressed upon it; then again at age 17 or 18, and again when I was 24. so keep this in mind, for me proving to someone that I will win it in 2 Decembers from now.
it's funny, a few times when I came upon the dreams in life, my body took over and acted on its own a few times. scared the shit out of me, but I just figured that it was some type of god thing. I do not know. I DO feel that this is 1 thing for showing me that I really am part of some god plan or something.
All that really made me familiar with dream analysis. you might have seen me do a couple dream interpretations in here before. I've been told in here, and out here in the world, that I have great talent for that. another huge reason why I will get into psychology, if/when the opportunity arises for it. it all makes me want to see the results of the studies done on psychic abilities that the CIA, China, and a few other places have, though would need to know specifically what to ask for, the abstracts if not the full studies of some specific title of it all.

So whatever questions you might have, ask away. it is nice to be able to hear questions from someone who will not ask them with contempt.

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by Wiseacre on April 20th, 2013

Yes, I understand.That alert thing happens to me as well, so I make sure to revisit the threads once to check If I have missed something.Don't worry and don't give up.You'll certainly have someone who would just be the way you have liked her to.Who knows, she might be looking for you and haven't found you yet!!
Jordan is lovely.Yes, she is naturally beautiful, except the breasts, but those were very finely done so that they don't look as if they are fixed in some garage.She never goes topless, but If she does, you won't see any signs of scar and they are very nicely done.I'd applaud the surgeons.Don't know, but tell you, I have seen natural beauty in the European region and I have great inclination for beauty like Jordan, though its not the only parameter for me to select a potential partner or a female companion to hang out with.
I'll share the snaps of some more beauties and I think you'd like them as well, but not on this thead.LOL.I don't want them to know and charge us on spreading vulgarity and obscenity, though we never do or intend to.It's just my way to appreciate female beauty.

Hmmm, I see you not only respect your dreams, but analyze those those which is not and easy task to put into practice.Sometimes while analyzing, you might recall some.I also believe dreams do have some connections with reality we are living in.Many studies are going on on those.Again, I am more curious that you saw in it versions.For me, it has many times happened that I have continued to see the same dream even after waking up in between.Weird how some people say dreams exist only till you don't wake up.I am also a believer of God's plan for us, but I do believe that, he sometimes changes plan seeing us trying too hard for something with dedication.Results might get delayed, but they would show up.

I love to hear from people on their experiences with various stuffs.I just like to listen and find a meaning in everything .Everything is meaningful, if you try to find a meaning in it.I'd certainly ask more.I am sorry to hear about your mother.Were you close to her, if you don't mind me asking?

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by engineer is Terminator on April 21st, 2013

My mother was a source of strength for me. she really did help me out more than a few times. a real shame that she let her bladder surgery go bad, and she always had to contend with bladder infection; about 5 years before she died. she was starting to step up and DO the things she needed to do to lose weight. she had type 2 diabetes, and refused to deal with it, as I am a type 1; that pissed me off, while I was sitting there ready to help her to deal.
she always found some mental strength in how good me and 1 sister always did our best to beat her at scrabble. she creamed us all the time, and just loved how she could see our minds working to do more for that, and other things.
Meaning in everything is EXACTLY how I have always looked at things. even in the tiniest of actions, there can be a whole short story in it, if not a novel. people look at me with shock and surprise whenever I see something others see, and I comment on what it all means. that just floors a lot of people sometimes, and really has changed a whole lot of minds, that there IS more to it all.
any more, the dreams I have are really something I have a start in with stage 1 sleep. sometimes pain will keep me in that stage, but sometimes, a whole whopper of a dream can start in that stage, then a brief break, then the dream in the 3rd stage of sleep, as it normally would be. I find it funny that some 5th dimension has this exist in all times thing; I find that our minds can be lined up with that, especially with our dreams. If I can ever become a doctor in psychology, it is something I will do more study on. it is a curiosity of what parts of the brain would be involved with that, as love is now known to be some 14 different parts of the brain. I haven't had a premonition since I was 29 or 30. kinda wish I could still use it, and want to study exactly what Nostradamus did, as I think he used stage 1 and stage 3 sleep, while looking at a bowl of water on a table. I think that many of us CAN do that, if we just give it a shot. if we could only have a look at what the CIA the Vatican, the Germans and the Chinese have on all of that, we would then have the warnings that would be highly needed and looked into to progress it further. not to mention all the other mystical shit that IS just the brains natural way of working when stimulated right.
What all might you know of all of that, the Nostradamus thing, and other things of the like?

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by Wiseacre on April 21st, 2013

First of all, I'm sorry for your loss.I wish she rests in peace.Sounds like she was a role model for you and your sister.Watching you guys and observing the way you develop your thinking is the job of a mentor and it's pretty cool to have one at home.Observing every bit of the whole things is what an analyst does.That's how great findings are done.You are on the same route, so you just need to move on.I know you can go very far and you should really do this justice to the potential you have.So, carry on with your quest.Being a doctor in that discipline would be good for the society, besides all the good things that it fetches for you.You are someone who is willing to help, so we need more people like you in that area, rather than those business minded freaks who see nothing , but money and profit.Trust me, that field needs you more than you need it.

Regarding Nostradamus, I have read some of his predictions, but many of those didn't come true.Thanks for reminding me.Have to spend some time in my library now digging further into it.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 22nd, 2013

the biggest issue I have is to overcome my body. social security disability is now in a line to say that if you can go to school ATALL, then you are not disabled at all; the fucking manipulating idiots. I am stronger nowadays, but I still have 2 unpredictable days per week dealing with too much pain. last year, about this same time, I had at least 5 days a week with it. right now, Soc. Sec. is making me go through 2 entirely unnecessary procedures for me to have some nerves in my neck burned back. and it costs $40 in gas just to get to a hospital that can do it, while there are 2 hospitals where I live that claim to be so great, and they have nothing for this, the fucking less-ons, as they are not good enough to be called morons. I would really like to take some kids in a school, and help them to see how they themselves undermine themselves, with how parents issues really are more of a thing that is their issues too, and that they can overcome it all much better than their parents ever tried or accomplished with it.

I had read some articles about how Nostradamus HAD to write his predictions more figuratively since he would be titled a witch and burned for it. I think that is what might have caused some of the predictions to be so off. other than that, I understand that he was right on up until he said it was Hisler, but even then it is said that he had to write it like that to warn of Hitlers' SS. I have to admit, that after that time, I had not read much on it, though will, later. we do have to be warry that some of his things are wrong on the internet, as people will modify and adjust, to fit their own shit. I think the Smithsonian has some things on it, but I think I will look for what some French colleges have on it, rather than reading anything that might be faulted/copied wrong. You have peaked my curiosity on it now, again. thanks for that.

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by Wiseacre on April 22nd, 2013

That's a pity.Medical insurance doesn't cover the entire thing, if they do, there are so many clauses.added to that, the social security adds more to your sufferings.Not sure why they still call it, "social security".The idea you have to mentor kids, is a very noble one.The thought of teaching them to be themselves could make them go places if executed well.They are the future of this nation.So, to strengthen it further, we have to strengthen its future generation.

Yes, most articles of those kinds are destroyed or hidden somewhere, because of some intolerant people.People just can't stand something that goes against their opinion, so they either demolish it, or the supporters preserve it in some places which would be out of human reach.Internet as ruined everything.Even there are many works which are nothing, but the falsification of the original work.So, finding a good source is always difficult.So, I'd really encourage you to move on with your quest for knowledge.

Ok my friend, it's 12:58 am over here now.I can hear some nocturnal creatures back in the wood.Yeah, this is Califreakinfornia.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 23rd, 2013

Califreakinfornia. LOL
none of this crap would be going on had the not taken soc. sec. 10 billion dollar build up of savings in order to contend with the coming new people in dire need. congress completely stole that and screwed over a whole lot of people that paid into it and expect anything back from it. rip off thieving fuckers, need to be knee capped, at least. maybe an elbow too, for bleeps sake. it is always very very simple, to just allow the tax to GO to the crap it is for, until it has a 10 billion dollar saving, THEN rape the finances from the excess only. how frigging hard can that be. just wrong and nauseating.

I think that back in the 1970s, when the gospel of Judas was discovered, that someone was allowed into the Vatican vaults, and actually studied some of the things Nostradamus wrote. I'm going to have to review that. I think that mostly they just commented on some things relative to the 1980s and 90s. I think there was something in it about how something became something else in governments. that would have been the Supreme court decision that a business is equal to a person, though don't know at all. If I remember right, it was that some creature DID become human, as Nostro, had written. but like I said, I have to review it.
Great talking with you. rest well, and deep, and safe.

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by Wiseacre on April 23rd, 2013

So, what about other expenses like medical bills and doctors fee? Does your insurance cover it all? It was 2 years ago I heard from a member that he was so ill that his wife abandoned him.It was winters and he was left with an option either to pay his electricity bills and rent or the medical bills.I started a thread asking about him, but no one had an update.
http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/2412648#ans10232600

To hell with the insurance agencies and all other profit making organization that claim to do good to people, but do otherwise.

I have read numerous stories and some isolated one and some even claimed that the 20th century will see 3 big wars.Not sure if he was talking about the world wars or stuffs, but both world wars started from Europe as he predicted.Yes, I know about that creature thing as well.Not sure if that a werewolf or something else, but from the back of my mind, I recall something I read in my 6th grade inside the library.I keep reading stuffs about him from time to time, but have to give it a serious thought now for a while.

Pleasure is all mine, my friend.Time to workout.let me pump some iron and lift some deada$$ weights.will join in back in a couple of hours.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 23rd, 2013

Right now I have about $11,000 in 10 year old medical bills. all from before I was ever on medicare. and all before the US made bankruptcy only for the more wealthy, back in the 1990s. I always sacrifice medical for living things. of all the medical bills I have, I WANT to pay the 1 for my shoulder surgeries; about $400 on that still. the others, the doctors just would not do as they were supposed to do, and give a PROPER diagnosis. just wrong shit there.

I think that we entered into the 21st century WITH the war on for our minds. that, I think IS the biggest war that we are all going to have to confront strongly and demandingly very promptly. the movie, "The Book of Eli" really did well on explaining some ridiculous stuff about a war on for religion. funny that it is now only the muslims that are war minded in all of that right now, at least more than others are at all. as for a 3rd war, it is still quite early to really know much of any other things that might happen as far as wars go. It hurts in my soul that we are not fighting that war on for our minds more effectively, as we could/should be. have you ever heard of prisonplanet.com? they are the ones with the phrase, "A war on for our minds". not that bad of a site at all, and very informative, and true, for what I have read from it all, though it is over paranoid to some degree, it does make a lot of valid points.

I have recently stopped 1 medicine that I took solely for pain; a schizophrenia med. my mind is more working and more itself than many other times. the med helped my brain out quite a bit, as far as I can tell. it just is not needed anymore. my shrink is trying to keep me on it, but to hell with that. I have to wait until I get these nerves in my neck burned back before I can ask him to increase this antidepressant med I use for something to give me the gumption to get off my ass. I don't have a normal type of depression at all, and the doctors now, agree on that. funny.

I'll be glad to hear from you later in this, and other things.

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by Wiseacre on April 23rd, 2013

Doctors have been doing wrong diagnosis since ages.When my granny fell sick, 3 different docs diagnosed her for 3 separate ailments.Funny as hell and at the same time, I was like, how on earth did they get their degrees?Bloody losers.They have made it a kinda business.When I see them live on hilltop, drive Aston Martin and brag about all the wealth they have hoarded, I just want to ask them, is that it? Just having joy ride on some deadman's money? Glad I'm an engineer.At least, I know how to fix stuffs. Not all, but I have lost respect for some of the doctors and lawyers, of course.

Not only we entered it with war in mind, we waged a lot of those, without a good reason.Drained resources un necessarily.Pumped cluster bombs that re embedded in fields and even exploding after 70 years in certain regions of the world.Yes, I had a look at that site, but never been in to it.I'll have a good look at it.Yes, we don't wage enough wars for the mind and that's the thing has been degenerating, since ages.

With the kinda effort you are putting in, you can deal with any kind of depression without meds.You have managed to deal with pain as well.What could anyone who's in your situation could ask for? Good job is should say.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 24th, 2013

thanks for the good job on what I handle. I do tell people that I do know things that other would never know, and that most people never tell me congratulations for it all. I've been told that 1 other time, a long time ago.
The last time I was on prison planet, they had a few things about congressmen screwing over a whole lot. I was into it then, but haven't been there lately. Wasn't there even some WWI things that still went off until the 70s? I thought I had heard about that, and that they really did clean it all up after a kid died.
I see the difference of those with insurance and those with medicare. totally WRONG fucking attitude for any frigging doctor to ever display. the Hippocratic oath really is a selective thing for them to claim they took. I know of 2 times in Minneapolis that 2 doctors just never bothered helping any triage or anything in a time when it was needed. I have found that literally, about 1/3 of all doctors do anything that they really should at all.
how about you? have you had very much interaction with doctors other than for family members?

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by Wiseacre on April 24th, 2013

You really deserve more than thanking.What you do, is no less than any great achievement.We congratulate people for building gadgets, computers and stuffs for consumer market, but what you did, was a great step towards resolving human suffering.That should be appreciated and if not, shame on us.I would like you to make it large and publish your stuffs.If possible, get a copyright , because no other creep should take credits for what you have figured out.I know you might have followed some preexisting techniques, but you have a way to follow those which is what we all want.

regarding the doctors, I have always been to them for family members.I don't trust them at all.They will make you even more sick.I have known doctors killing a friends father and some other people i know.They just screwed up a simple option and the area got infected.I mean to say, why on earth would something catch infection internally in the operated area unless someone didn't goof up big time?Quite f*cking disgusting that they just play around with human lives with no regrets at all and live life as if nothing has happened.Still happy dancing on a few corpse.I really wish I don't have to see any.

Yes, they go off even today in some parts of Russia and Europe.The fact is, if the chemical reaction stops due to cooling off or due to some other reason, the cluster bombs would remain unexploded.The height from which they are released, they can penetrate quite a few feet inside the earth and stay there.later years when you dig things out for construction or agriculture, a simple nick could result in an explosive reaction and devastation.

Here I have saved a few of the reports.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/10212890
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-europe-16018659

Not sure when people will learn that bombs are not the answer to no darn thing whatsoever.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 25th, 2013

I think that you are the only person that ever told me to take the credit. I once felt like all that I did was a waste, and kinda got a sympathy, "Take credit for that which you deserve to" thing. other than that, everyone has stated that it all was very good, but not much more. it reminds me of how Jesus had cured several lepers, and only 1 took the time to come back to him and thank him.
I think I will print it out and take it to a psychology or psychiatry professor, and see what they have to say, though they will be overly petty and not trust worthy enough to have much confidence in. I once took something similar to someone, and they just said, it all has been done and copywritten, so that made me not do much with it all. thank you for the encouragement. I think I will try and print that out today, and make an appointment with a college professor, and see about if it will work with some students. first things first though; print it out, and take it to the professor, then see what can happen with it.
My family has always been in so much disgust with how doctors never come to peoples houses and point out all the crap that IS making so many sick/not feel right. as soon as insurance took over the entire medical industry, my mom asked me how it felt to be sold to pharmaceutical and insurance companies. any diabetic can know what slavery actually felt like, unlike those losers who think they know what it could be like, posers. I really do feel some staff along my back that makes me feel like some puppet or another.
I think that I remember that a kid in the 1980s had set 1 off, and he was just messing with it as he was only curious. since then I have heard about it all left over from Korea and Vietnam. I was real happy to hear that they were more responsible with it all in the Islamic nations we are fighting in. war does not justify such negligence, and even the Geneva convention had quite a few pages on it all, if I remember right.
Humans and being responsible for that which they do. how original of a concept, NOT. dam them.

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by Wiseacre on April 25th, 2013

True and your example about Jesus is a perfect one.People are not really appreciative now a days.If you make it free, no one realizes its worth.If you sell it at at a high cost, though you might have difficulty marketing, but you'll get returns for sure.Weird world this is.It's the same like people go in search for stuffs all across the world while it's present at home.That realization part is missing.

Hmm, yeah, that would be a cool idea, but buddy, instead of taking a print out, why don't you just discuss your idea with him first and let him know your thought process.Then let him know you have documented it.I say that because, we lack honest people now a days and I don't want you to get hurt by someone who'd pretend as if your work is already done by someone, but later on pull out the printed stuff and work further on it.I know some a lot of farts who did that.It has once happened with me, so just talk to someone who you trust or arrange a seminar at some college where students and other members would be there to listen to you.

I understand your concern and your Mom is right over there.She sounds like she was a person of great philosophy and I see you too are.People like you can see reason behind reasons and we really need more people like you.The sad part is, we have to live with this system, unless someone brings a revolution.

Yes and still there's no change.Some of the missiles they produce now a days, can bounce miles after hitting some hard surface and fall in some other place than expected.If we word it correctly, missiles are not the culprit, but the cluster bombs.where one explodes to several others and all of those don't go off.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 25th, 2013

reading what you said about people stealing other peoples idea is something I am more than familiar with. bosses have always taken my ideas and gotten raises and or promotions for them. thanks for the reminder for it all. I am going to have to arrange a seminar for it, but I want to arrange for a class to do it, and 1 that doesn't and compare the results from tests and papers. taking it too far too fast I think. that is something I always do too. I wonder if a good woman would be able to help me with that? lol

What I find funny as hell is that a class for reading between the lines was eliminated at one college I was at; just stupid and wrong for education that we are paying for.

yeah, my mom was the biggest influence on my life. I am somewhat of a feminazi with her ideals put into me as she did it, lol.

the UN had some program to clean it all up in Korea and Vietnam and a few other countries; I wonder what ever came of the money for it; typical shit nothing, I imagine. 1 day that crap will be all cleaned up, but not any time soon, I think.

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by Wiseacre on April 25th, 2013

Somewhere I have heard, "no one remembers the soldiers, but the kings". So as it goes, it's more like those who are dominant, are always gonna dominate.Not that I am very fond of the idea, but that's how it has been going since the beginning of the time.What education is making out of us, even we don't know.People study something and they end up doing something else.

Nothing to be ashamed of.Even I am influenced by my mom's ideas.They say it that kids influenced by mother are rational and balanced most of the time.

Oh yeah, some woman could help you with the papers and test stuffs, huh?

Someone beautiful and intelligent like her?

Image:

http://pubsecrets.files.wordpress.com
http://wfiles.brothersoft.com

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by engineer is Terminator on April 25th, 2013

lol, I'll take them. I really could use that kind of encouragement. great DDDs there, aren't they? just WOW on them 2. it almost makes me hurt to see that and be so alone. oh well.

Actually, it is the GOOD kings that remember the soldiers. I think our human history proves that not all soldiers are taken care of as well as they could/should be.
Taking care of all that remains on battle fields IS a soldier thing, whether done by a soldier or the people that volunteer to clean it all up.

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by Wiseacre on April 25th, 2013

Lol you underestimated those fun bags again.They areK or JJ cups. Much more bigger than DDDs.So better deal, huh? And hey, she's none other than our very own Jordan Carver.LOL.The best thing about that girl is she looks different in every shoot.

I agree.I always try to please people who work for me, than for whom I work.And yes, that bonus thing worked.The guy's attitude has changed a lot and now he's behaving more like an experienced mentor than being a fart house.Money is the biggest motivation for most and when he got the rewarding bonus, he was humbled.The management also announced that it was my idea, though I didn't want them to, but yeah, let it be.I see new energy at work place this week.

The fact is, soldiers win war, kings just lead .Oh yeah, some mislead as well.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 26th, 2013

I am glad that bonus thing worked out. you probably have about 10 months before he gets to be too bad off again. by then you might want to be more prepared for it if possible. livestrong.com might have some articles about how to handle people like that.
I think these might be able to help you with more.
http://www.livestrong.com/article/16373-deal-narcissistic-personality/
http://www.livestrong.com/article/212147-how-to-deal-with-difficult-elderly-parents/
http://www.livestrong.com/article/246994-how-do-i-handle-difficult-relatives/
http://www.livestrong.com/dealing-with-difficult-children/

have you known any of Dale Carnegies' teachings? I am going to look into this soon too. this one is from the book, "How to win friends and influence people" I had read about 15 years ago.
http://www.dalecarnegie.com/secrets_of_success/?keycode=google06_LearnDev&gclid=CP37vue66LYCFfE7Mgod1iMAIQ

If anything, It will likely be knowledge that will benefit you in the future with other people and places. I have to read all that too.

JJ cups. uhf duh. I didn't even think that was her, but yeah, wow, she really can model. I think a person like that is best for movie, in that she likely can have more than 1 blank face, unlike so many actors.

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by Wiseacre on April 26th, 2013

That's true, but he'll be getting some more rewards next quarter and hopefully remain motivated, else plan B, C or D, but can't afford to lose him, though won't admit that on his face.That might make him take some undue advantage.

The 4 links you have provided are very handy.My parents are cool and they are not that elderly now LOL, but yeah, in future, things might change.Dad is a bit difficult, but he's okay.Thanks again.Those links are very handy.Though I have no kids, but yeah, lets be prepared for the future.

No, I haven't heard of Dale Carnegies teachings, but I'd like to.I am open to everything before accepting or rejecting.Let me have a look at it and I'll let you know.Knowledge is what I pursue every moment of my life.I don't want my time get wasted doing nothing at all.Even if its gradual, I appreciate it.So I appreciate you helping me in my quest for knowledge.

Yes, It's her.I'll pass on a youtube video to you.She has acting talent and she had a few offers to act in movies, but she denied those, because that would affect her mainstream modeling career and she can't give time to fans doing tours, but she hasn't declined it completely.She remains really busy all day in her assignments and endorsing products and doing certain charitable activities. Love her for the way she thinks.Not greedy for anything, but really being her.Most impotently, she never lets her success get into her head.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 26th, 2013

that is so right, that if he knew that he would get bonuses already, whoa, not good for management at all. lol

I mean for the family type 1s to be a thing to know, you are not family, but the teachings very well might apply to a work situation, and someone is acting like a child, or a fussy old fart would fit for the elderly parents, and the like; a relativity thing, as long as you remember the objectivity and lack of much closeness, but with the relative things that work is a type of family.
"How to win friends and influence people" is very good. Lincoln is referenced by Carnagie, as he was a huge fan of his. there is 1 part in it where it reminds us how people love to hear their names, and it goes through how to do what Dale did, repeat the name for 30 seconds, and the results he got for it. good knowledge. I have to read it again though I think. that's about all I remember off the top of my head about it.

Too bad that she doesn't have a good enough modeling agent who could know full well how to manage at least 1 film per year, and still have her do all the other stuff. I wonder who her agents are? again, thank you for the delight of showing her to me.

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by Wiseacre on April 26th, 2013

Yes, you are right.Relating things can help and I am into those links now.Will dig further and try to apply those principles.those are very vital tips for healthy social living.

Jordan is into many modeling agencies, but yes, its true.May be she's too sexy for movies and I think her acting is not that well up to the level.No problem, time to forward another female profile I know.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 26th, 2013

this guy morislook is talking with me how ridiculous that so many people do not see things as puzzles like he and I d. do you see that most things in lf is a puzzle?

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by Wiseacre on April 26th, 2013

I do.I still see things many things as unresolved.Like, why people behave in certain way.What's the chemical reaction and hormonal secretion happening that time.Most things that puzzles me is human behavior, but not the judgmental way out, but chemically.

Again, one thing that puzzles me more is, the universe.People say it started from somewhere, but if did, what was the initial point.If it's expanding, what space is it filling in.If it was there as nothing, what was outside.Space and time are the things that puzzles the crap out of me and we don't have a mathematical formulation to convince ourselves.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 26th, 2013

that everything came from nothing, makes me wonder about how the physics all got bunched up in order to create that first thing that exploded into the universe. it really is perplexing. it also makes me wonder just what else might there be outside of the universe, and if time and space is a thing that would be allowing for us to visit a next dimension quickly or not. though with that, we would not age, and time would really have no meaning whatsoever.
It really is a why the fuck can't we be allowed to know much of all that, other than for our own ignorance, and not taking the math as far as Egyptians and others.

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by Wiseacre on April 27th, 2013

A number of theories are framed, but their physical significance is zero.Even with all world Astrophysicists coming together, all they do is, get busy in proving the others wrong rather than proving themselves right.All theories have flaws and they go and crumble at a point.On earth, Newtonian physics works good, but in space and when it comes to black holes, the relativistic mechanics comes into pictures and frames of reference comes into picture.It's all about the object and the observer.

Imagine you, Jordan and I go on a spaceship with you as the captain, Jordan as the assistant and me being the flight engineer.We approach a black hole, but far enough from it's zone of attraction.Something goes wrong and Jordan screams.I go out to check the stuff and fall of the spaceship and the cable that keeps me connected detaches.I fall into the black hole zone.You and Jordan see me falling.Jordan screams, but I can't hear her as space has no medium to transmit sound.I feel I am falling, but you guys see me stuck after I have fallen considerable distance.That's because time is dilated or almost constant as per your observation.You just don't see me beyond a point, while the fact is, I'll get squished my the high gravity of black hole.

A scene you or the Lovely Jordan won't be able to see, because nothing escapes the surface of blackholes.Not even light.So, if light is not transmitted back, you just can't see a thing, but that's a separate story.The real deal is, time is just stuck, and you won't see me beyond a point, but don't try to save me, because you'll have my fate.

I as observer and you guys and space ship as object, I see myself drifting away till my final fate, but you guys as observer and me as object, you see me stuck in time and not aging, not dying.If you take a round trip and come back, I won't be there, because then the frames of reference will be changed and you moved in time and space.

This is the paradox, but we won't be able to prove it by any darn way.If that happens, Jordan will be all yours.At least during your way back to earth.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 27th, 2013

You sly dog, using intelligence to intertwine me into a fantasy like that. LOL.
I knew all of that about the black hole, though appreciate the reminder.
And it is just absurd that the science is not catered too as much as a jealousy thing in debunking each other, as I bet about 5 of any of those theories might be a working together thing to show evidence of a next step in understanding of it all. it boils down to business doing more TO science, than doing any type of good for it at all.
Did we not just get to a type of god particle? what is going on with that? I HATE how we hear something, and never hear much more of it. I imagine that there is a lot of things being investigated with it. I think I'll write Scientific American, and ask for a new article on all that that discovery has made for further study?

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by Wiseacre on April 27th, 2013

Haha.My studies are still on on those stuffs.I have subscribed to Nasa's news letter, but be careful with the subscription.Just select things that you need to know.If you go too far with the subscription list, you'll be swamped with emails.It's like more than 100 a day.Regarding that particle thing, go for CERN updates.It will keep you abreast of all the latest findings in the field of particle physics and that too officially.Here's the link.
http://home.web.cern.ch/about/updates
http://home.web.cern.ch/cern-people/updates

Regarding that God particle thing, it's just a hypothetical particle and named as a God particle as nobody had a clue about it.Yes, they made a breakthrough in determining the Higg's field in the month of march, but its structure of the particle and its composition is still under study.Like all the particles its composed of besides Bosons and photons.Still at some point they are unsure if it's the same particle they were looking for.
Here's the report on it published in CNN 2 days after the confirmation.
http://www.cnn.com/2013/03/14/tech/innovation/higgs-boson-god-particle
The particle is nothing God like, if it ever has any significance.It's just the author named it as "God Particle" rather than "Goddamn particle" thinking God particle title would sell more copies.Business here once again.

If it's discovered now, still its application will be nil at this point of time, but may be in future it will open new gates to new findings.Just like quantum mechanics did in case of communication systems in the 20th century, while it was just a theory in the beginning of it.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 27th, 2013

LOL, yeah, I knew that the term "God" for the particle was a huge misnomer. isn't there something like 112 atoms in it, and the first thing to have that many atoms in it on earth? I thought it was something like that in that it would have to show spins and all regarding the almost grand unified hypothesis thing.

I just put the Cern updates into my favorites. I hope that Microsoft won't delete it like it does to every persons favorites. I'll check out the CNN thing right now.

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by Wiseacre on April 28th, 2013

It's more of a particle which is sub atomic.It's composed of 2 photons and Bosons and some other unknown stuffs.
Regarding the known part, as you know photons are the elementary part of light that have no rest mass.I wonder if they are ever in rest, as all we know is that they keep moving till they are absorbed.
Bosons are like stuffs that bind the matter together.They are not matter, but just adhesives that hold matter together.Kinda force you can say, just like force of gravity.Even gravitons are categorized as bosons.They carry weak nuclear force with them.

So in other words, God particle consists of 2 photons and 2 particles that keep the weak interaction alive.

The best thing to save all your favorites is, go to your favorites folder and take a back up of it.In case your browser crashes, get the back up and drop it in the browser's folder again and you'll see all of them appear again.If MS is the b*tch, we can be b*tchier.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 28th, 2013

is it the Bosons that is what hold the particles together with a table? that eventually we will be able to put a table in something and it would be power for quite a while?

I'm trying to remember what I have learned about it, but my mind is just in a state of growing older, I think; going a little bit duller, lol.
This article from a 2011 Scientific American really did remind me of a lot, and gave me some new info, but I can't find that either. it was great for a layperson to have a gist of it all. the article was great for covering the whole spiel of it.

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by Wiseacre on April 28th, 2013

They are more like carrier particles for weak nuclear force.They play their role during nuclear decay.

I'll refer you 2 links that you'd find interesting

Below one is for knowing the bosons

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/W_and_Z_bosons#Basic_properties

This one is all about CERN and new findings on bosons.
http://cern-discoveries.web.cern.ch/cern-discoveries/Courier/HeavyLight/Heavylight.html

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by engineer is Terminator on April 28th, 2013

this is the first site from Wikipedia that I EVER put into my favorites. it totally reminded me of all that was in the articles from Sci. American.
Quarks, spin W and bosens. it makes me somewhat passionate to know more of all that. If I ever take up college again, like I hope to, I think I will have some hands on learning for computers, a psychology class, and a physics class.
God, just thinking about it all gets me a good type of anxious to do it, though I have to wait a year and 1/2 for it.
I want to study physics for coming up with some way to detect the small amount of ghosts that do exist. kinda away from the science, but using the science to prove a thing that might not fit into the electric field and the magnetic field, as I think there is a small charge of negligible electricity, which gives way to the cold sensations of the magnetic field of so called ghost.
I dunno. I just know in my gut that there IS something there to uncover, especially with how we exist in several dimensions, and ghost can transcend some of them to affect the physics of 1 of those dimensions.
this also reminds me that time in a dimension. that I think it was a 5th dimension that all time can be seen as happening all at once. something I knew before it was ever mentioned in the men in black 3rd movie, lol.
You really are getting my gumptions going. it is greatly appreciated. I haven't felt passion like this for a long time, even if it is for knowledge, and knowing more.

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by Wiseacre on April 29th, 2013

I appreciate your zeal to learn and physics is something that is based on reasons.If there's something that's absurd, it won't have its place in physics.It's a perfect area for a person like you.It was my favorite subject and it's still is.

Your relation of electromagnetic field with ghosts is an interesting phenomena.Yes, if energy of some form transform after we die and retains our identity in some way, then its pure science which people confused and relate with ghosts in religious terms.I think if we dedicate work, we can prove those as nothing but energies.Just like energies can be used in various ways, so do the ghostly energies could be.If you have read about ancient aliens, you would come across so many phenomenal stuffs like that.It's also aired in H2 channel.

Buddy, it's just the beginning.As I keep knowing more about your interest, I keep suggesting stuffs.I think there's a long way to go and we would explore a lot more things.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 29th, 2013

do you ever feel shame that we do know a lot, but can never know enough? It is a thing that always has bothered me, that we cannot reach he fullest of potential that we should/could have.
I never did like the term ghosts, but it is easier to write out than "the magnetic field that might be someone", or the like. lol
If they really are ghosts, then it would indicate the proof of how each and every emotion has its own energy, and does impact on things. using the old reasoning of how strong emotions leave a ghost or something of the like. an impression on things that also used to live, like wood and more.
I have always had this fantasy of making something that can detect spirits or something of he like. maybe in our lifetimes; who knows?
the knowledge of physics is always something that will get my goose. if you know of a woman that knows physics, and is at least a 6, let me know. she would get my rocks off quite a bit, I think, lol.

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by Wiseacre on April 29th, 2013

No, I just feel challenged that I don't know enough and I that's what keeps me on my toes every time.The day I feel like I have known enough, learning would stop for me.I know a life time is less for it, but we will pass on something fruitful to the next generation to carry.Someone has to carry the torch further.

Ghost thing is impracticable unless we grab hold of one and so the research.If it's true, we have a good chance to work on ourselves after our body meets the dust, but , if that's possible, most intelligent people would have always kept on working even after their death.

Or do they reach the height of perversion after their death and chance chicks like Jordan forgetting physics, I don't know.

Yes, my highschool physics teacher she's a 7 or 8 out of 10.She's in her early 40s, but has a family.I won't risk asking her for you, because her husband has a shotgun.Don't want to do projectile calculations when I'll be at the end point of the range.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 29th, 2013

MSN just had an article about a massive storm on Saturn. did you see anything about that? I think it is old news isn't it?
a 7 or 8 sounds perfect for me, but the shotgun, nahh.
with all the answers that come after death, I bet there would be a whole lot of advancements if we really could talk with the dead. pretty much, my study of the ghosts or whatever would be to determine if they are the emotional imprints of intense emotions upon death, or an actual person. the places that are known to have ghosts would be something for investigating that. I would have all sorts of sensors, and any number of things studying all of that, as much as humanly possible.
I could never direct that challenge me stuff to the extremes I wanted. no direction for kids really is a big thing hindering much of success for them/me. I now can focus, but without some outside thing making it an obligation, it just doesn't hold the satisfaction, like with my meditation thing does for me. that really has gotten plenty of people help at critical times for them. without the livestrong.com articles, I don't think it would be very effective; a follow up homework type of thing. a crack the mind for other shit to filter in thing, huh?
I'm thinking to budget strength of desire to make sure I pick a book up, like physics for dummies or something. I also have to budget strength of mind to be sure I do stuff to get some window cleaning done for some pay of some sort.
baby steps with the determination behind it.

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by Wiseacre on April 29th, 2013

I keep reading such articles,only today it is published in Nasa's website if this is the one you are talking about.

http://www.nasa.gov/mission_pages/cassini/whycassini/cassini20130429.html

Would love to talk more on that.So any questions you have in your mind, just shoot and will discuss.

I know you're just going great the way you are, and unlike many others you have the perfect judgement of good and the bad.I'm sure you are capable of making great decisions.You just have to trust yourself with it.whether its medication, science, physics or self improvement, you are a very thoughtful person blessed with rational thinking and intelligence, so I don't think you'll have problem with anything at all.regarding that finance thing, trust me, you have huge potential in yourself to get rich dividends investing very minimal or none.You just have to figure it out and move ahead.You have the determination and the baby steps you are taking, would transform in to a giant leap one day.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 30th, 2013

thanks for the nasa casini site. I though that things were not necessarily hurricanes, but something else, when over land? I also thought that once the wind speeds got greater than something like 250mph that it was no longer a hurricane too? do you know if there was any indication of soils being brought up into the atmosphere? wasn't that hurricane there for about 5 years already?

That is just it. being so poor, I have no resources, and that is the only way to do anything, have resources. I've wanted to start some of my own think tanks, but again, being poor only means to everyone else that I do not know what I should, or need to know.
I started a business 6 or 7 years ago, but as soon as I started it, my neck surgery kept pain high, and the diabetes screwing the healing it was just a wrong thing. EVERY time I gain 1 step, I always fall back 2. no support system also keeps me to the back.
If the world IS going to go to those who are meek, I have been waiting. lol

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by Wiseacre on April 30th, 2013

That phenomena was observed on the poles of Saturn.It's spring time over there now(LOL. Saturn springtime with all those mythic creatures on spring break)
The eye of the hurricane as big as 2 times the diameter of the earth.The phenomena is same as we see on the surface of the earth, the only difference is, it'd mostly gaseous in nature.Yes, that's most surprising thing.It spins at around 330 mph.Much faster than any hurricane on earth.Only planet besides earth where the eye phenomena is seen.You are right.On earth, the hurricanes drift was based on the surface sea temperature and difference in pressure, but on Saturn, they are already on the poles so no where else to go.It's kinda stuck there.It takes almost 7 to 8 years on Saturn to change seasons on its north pole.Think of it.It's almost 30 earth years for Saturn to go around The Sun.

So, we just don't know since what time it has been over there, because Cassini got a clear picture only now after waiting 9 years since it started its journey.It was mid winter at that time.Sounds scary.A planet that's so huge and so cold.So just think how cold and scary its winter would be.

Regarding that dust part, it's more of gases that are present on the surface of Saturn, so we won't be having any trace of solid soil.No cloud either, because of absence of water.The cloud you see, is just dense gases clogging together in that violent spin.

I understand that finance thing, because I have been through that hell when I have to think thrice before thinking to eat something that would tickle my taste buds and sometimes just in order to counter the hunger.Pain is causing it even tougher for you, but with the kinda spirit you have, you can overcome anything.Prove everyone wrong and be fit and healthy again.The best part is you are trying.

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by engineer is Terminator on April 30th, 2013

Guess you didn't get the alert on this one!!

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by engineer is Terminator on May 1st, 2013

LOL hopped off for about a day there. sorry.
I think that it is just amazing that Saturn is what 50 earth tall, and the satellites are able to travel that far too.
Isn't that eye on Jupiter thought to be stuck over some deep hole there? did they ever think it might be a pole of some sort, as ours shift, and other things?
I would love to see a holograph of what the surface of Jupiter or Saturn. the air thick with gases I bet.
yeah the only way I can look at things is as a puzzle, so piece by piece, 1 piece at a time. I just wish that it didn't take so long for the next pieces. I'm thinking to do anything to get myself as the president of my own company of nothing, and just see what I can do from there. there are a lot of discount things I got offered when I did the in 2005, I think the year was. funnier still is that it only takes that certificate of assumed name and about $80.
Don't you yourself ever want to be your own business, and have a hobby out of it?

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by Wiseacre on May 1st, 2013

fucking computer is having some long running script problems. sorry about the false alerts there.

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166 comments. cows with holes in it, err, holey cow.

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by Wiseacre on May 1st, 2013

Wowowow!! LOL I think the script ran a bit more than it was supposed to.At poles if stuffs develop, they just can't move anywhere, because of the pressure and temperature equilibrium over there and if there's any drift at all, they would pull it back on to the poles.So, there are least chances that things would go far beyond the poles.

Aber Marguerite posted a few great questions on the science board and it really felt like salvation answering those.

Yeah, I have a small business of my own, but I can't give myself anytime to make it large.At present I can't, because my job is fetching me good returns, though I have kept that as a future perspective.

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by engineer is Terminator on May 1st, 2013

slingshot effect, right? I think I remember that is any way to speed up for going around the planet itself, though the high speed might be something, but the lack of gravity would mean a whole lot. this is making me think to have a look at all of NASAs shots of satellites and all. aren't they now inside a type of silicone cushioning inside a strong box of some sort?
Marguerite is pretty impressive. she put me in my place a few times. LOL
What exactly is that small business?

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by Wiseacre on May 1st, 2013

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