I am not adopted but I have four relatives that are. Three are adopted brother and sisters and are my cousins. They were raised by my aunt and uncle and had an excellent relationship with their parents. They never had any desire to search for their birth parents and are now all parents of their own children. My husband's cousin was also adopted and went through a tough period in her teen years and that was a factor in her seeking out her birth parents. She did and met with them in her early twenties. She was devastated by the meeting. She found her parents, still together, and seven siblings. It seems her birth parents just kept having children and randomly gave away children who they decided they didn't like. Her parents and siblings were all pretty awful and had numerous learning and physical difficulties. When she appeared they attempted to extort many favors and money from her, showed up at her house at all hours and generally made her unhappy. She now says she looked for all the wrong reasons. Mostly to hurt the parents she was rebelling against and has said now she wishes either she hadn't looked or that she had taken the time to steady herself for what she might find. I think if you decide to look you need to be ready to accept what ever you might find, the good or the bad. Make sure you have someone to talk to about all this too. There are some adoption support groups that might be able to sort out your feelings and might also help you with the search that you can find on the net. Good luck to you what ever you decided to do.