Im gonna stop cuttin -serious this time- do u think it would b ok 2 have my bff wtch whn I thrw out all my razors ect (just cant do it by myslf take thm out and then put thm back in thr hiding spots)Or would tht freak her out? Thyr hidden all over my room

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• Actually, I would be GLAD to explain. Self injury is typically not "half-hearted suicide". In many cases, it's the exact opposite. SI is typically a coping mechanism, albeit an unhealthy one. This can be compared to the much less detrimental thumb sucking in young children or rocking in autistic people. I can't even explain why I do it, really. I've self injured for as long as I remember. Of course, the actual cutting began recently, in the last year or so, but it was sort of the natural development of the SI that has been going on for my entire life. I can't exactly point to the reason that I SI at all, except that I was raised in less than optimal conditions, and that I doubtless suffer from mental illnesses (undiagnosed or not). One thing I do know is that SI DOES offer me temporary relief. I know it sounds crazy, because it is. One has to have something "not right" to get and relief from SI, and it's very difficult to explain how it offers relief unless the other person can relate.

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  by No longer on answerbag on November 20th, 2009

• Also, SI is seen by many as by many who practice it as a way to PREVENT them from committing suicide. The relief it offers, however temporary, can give a person just enough slack so that they can "take a step or two away from the edge" and avoid doing something more drastic. Again, it's quite difficult, even impossible, to explain WHY one would cut, as opposed to coping in another way, when faced with problems. I'm sorry I couldn't make this as clear as I wanted to, but feel free to ask if you want to know anything specific... I think knowledge is the best tool to making the world a better place!

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  by No longer on answerbag on November 20th, 2009

• Did that seriously not post? Gosh! I spent like ten minutes on that!

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  by No longer on answerbag on November 20th, 2009

• oh...nvm

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  by No longer on answerbag on November 20th, 2009

• I see what you're saying. But really, what do you do to make your life productive? Why don't you find things that NEED to be done so you won't have enough time on your hands to sit around thinking about how useless and/or troubled you are. The MAJORITY of everyone I've ever known grew up in less than optimal conditions. So that's no reason. Make yourself useful.

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  by SmallTownCelebrity on November 21st, 2009

• Erm... I've written a book, I have over 400 hours of volunteer service this month alone, I'm an active member of ten clubs, I'm on the robotics team, I'm active at church, I'm active politically, I have hobbies, I have a social life. Pretty much the only thing going against me here is abuse, and a genetic predisposition to depression. I am making my self useful, but it isn't enough.

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  by No longer on answerbag on November 21st, 2009

• What's your book about?

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  by SmallTownCelebrity on November 21st, 2009

• It's a fantasy book for middle grades level, and runs about 92 thousand words. It's protagonist is a ten year old girl named Clara.

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  by No longer on answerbag on November 21st, 2009

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• You're right, it's NOT the first time I've tried to stop. Far from it, actually. I am going to tell an adult eventually, I just don't feel comfortable with that yet. (My mother is often abusive, and that obviously leads to problems with the whole "teachers must disclose if you're harming yourself" thing... and I don't have a school counselor) I was actually just going to tell my parents about my depression, because they are of the "cutters should just kill themselves" pool of thought, and I really don't need to deal with that mess on top of everything else.

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  by No longer on answerbag on November 20th, 2009

• you know what that is a really good point you have. i tried seeing if there is any adult or authority figure who you could feel safe would not be obligated to report your potential for self harm, but i couln't find any.
  
  the best i got is this article: http://www.mentalhelp.net/poc/view_doc.php?type=advice&id=3138&at=2&cn=9&ad_2=1&submit=I+Agree
  "Does a therapist have to report me as suicidal if I tell her I self injure?
  Thu, May 15th 2008"
  which suggests you seek Dialectical Behavior Therapy, a sort of specialized therapy for self injurers.
  
  Do you know any of your friends parents who you can tell and trust they wont report you?
  
  I sympathize with you, btw. I did a bit of cutting years ago, but stopped some time ago. But, i never told anyone until i was done doing it, for the same reason you have.. i didn't want to deal with the consequences of obligatory reporting.
  
  well, if i can think of anything, ill post it here. in any case, good luck.

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  by Sage Chexie at your service on November 20th, 2009

• Thanks for the suggestion... I didn't even think about friends' parents. NO names come to mind at the moment, but I'm sure I'll figure something out.

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  by No longer on answerbag on November 20th, 2009

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