Are you a foster child?....do you ever wonder about your roots?

i was a foster child from the age of 5 up untill i left the system at the age of 18. i don't realy think about my roots, the way i figure it is that the person who put me in the system is just as to blame as the abusers in some of my foster homes. anyone who could do that to me is not forth my time nor my effort and will therofre not effect my life nor that of my little girl

i was adopted and even though i love my parents now and i could care less about my biological parents i do wonder where i come from, about my ancestors, about my history. i mean who doesn't? its only natural to think maybe grass could've been greener on the other side.

When the American Credit Card companies wanted your mother's maiden name as your secret password, I made them feel guilty by declaring "I don't know who my mother is, I'm an orphan". It was really great to hear the responses.

I am not but my mother was fostered out when she was four years old. She knew who her family was though and met some of them in later years but never lived with her mother again.

i grew p in foster care, i do NOT give a shit about by BIO family, but i do wonder about ancestors, i wonder if some of them are angels who look out for me, but i say if your from foster care like me, the best thing i ever did was start my own family i have 1 month old son who look like me, ill never do him wrong. read my thoughts on the system and my story below

I AM A 21 YEAR OLD MAN, WHO GREW UP IN FOSTER CAN IN FLORIDA FROM AGE OF 1 year old, white blond hair blue eyed boy !..I personally lived in the "system" for my entire life until i ran away when i was 16 year old, i lived in 1 really good home that help me become and man, but they where only a family with big heart, no money, nothing to give but bedroom and good principles, they took in thousand of kids only to retire because of all the bad attention and people trashing there name, but i also lived in some of the worst homes out there,homes that made you leave the house at 6am not return until 8pm when it time to go to bed, the worst parts about the system to keep this short are as follows,
1.the people who where "considering adopting" like one kid, it was total joke it was like "rent a kid" then they throw you back to the system when you don't "fit in".

2.all the BS consolers and doctors pushing drugs down your throat if you do have the right attitude towards "the system" and accept there reality.

3.having white children in black home, sound racists im sorry but it was weird being the white kid, im sure it wasnt fun for the black kids trying to explain to kids at school why they live in white home either.

3. people who use blog threads and comment sections to make 3rd party comments, and stats about how bad the system is and talk about the people who come from the system and all the problems they might have or do have, and forget that the internet is forever and there comments will be seen by people from "the system" one day.

4. turning 18 years and no ones gives shit and the system no longer cares, yea it super hard to have NO family support,then the pay check stop, and then Obama passed credit card reform bill that say you have to be 21 before your issued credit unless you have parents co sign!..(ummmm what about the people who want to go to college? what about the 3 year before we hit 21???? me personally amex,visa have been the only parents to ever give me dime, of course at 30%,but now all the young people coming into the system are screwed.)

5. knowing that your simply a stat and test dummie for government that doesnt help anyone, and your only worth $600 dollars a month, until someone decides your no longer worth that much and shift you to another home or location.

6.allowing the school system to inform all your teacher of who you are and problems they might have with you?

7. parents who come back into kids lives after years of separation and think they can do the job better than the parents caring for the child, ( look if you gave up dont come back until you got damn good solution and reason why this happen, not one foster kid need parents to come back and pretend they did it right, or can do it right, if you come back, earn it, work your ass of to make it right even if you never will.most of all dont tell the people taking care of your kids what to do cuz your not the one doing it.

I could go on and on, but reality is im not helping by doing this,every kid or person that was every in the system that i meet became my sister or brother, i have lost contact with almost all of them due the shuffling game, some where true rebels without a cause just needed direction, just needed mentor,people who don't get paid to chill with them, but want to, i got lucky, im 21 years old and i attached myself to people who didnt mind mentoring me and my ADD good people who didnt give rats ass about my past which is good cuz it something people want to stand far away from, i understand there alot of good people in the system trying very hard and i tip my hat to you and say please dont give up, but there far more people who are not good and not helping and the government is the first people to look at, again the people are good, the government has its own intention for foster kids, remember we belong to them,we government property, who knows why im not with my parents,but every random soul i did meet who did try make difference, even if they dont know it,i will always remember and so will god...also if your in the system reading this statement know that there are force bigger than this world, meaning GOD brought you to this post, he is watching, stay positive,and find your pride, its deep inside, and when you do, where it like badge of honor, your true solider who made it on your own... and start your own family.

"i am watching", "i do listen", and "i just think no one cares"

I have story that way to long for this comment box but every one person can make difference, i devote my life to this mission and helping people, i hope one day i can truly make difference in foster system, but only with more people in our community who care about the neighbors.