I'm 18 w/ a 4mo old,i have postpartum depression and cant control my emotions and feel down all the time tho i take great care of my son, luv 1s dont take me serious and say I'm this way b/c i chose 2 b,can 1 really control depression b/c i try & i can't

How much sleep are you getting? My child slept in 15 minute increments for her first two weeks. She was two before we found out that she had serious reflux, because she never spit up. She swallowed before it got to her mouth. So we never saw any symptoms. We didn't know that she'd had a stroke, or that the muscle that closes the top of her stomach was weakened and couldn't keep the acid in. All I knew was that she wasn't sleeping at all. After two weeks of that, I started having hallucinations. I gave my child to my mother and told her "I've got to sleep." I went in and closed the door while mom took my child outside where I couldn't hear her. I slept soundly for several hours and after that I had no more hallucinations.

I know there are other causes for post-partum depression, but if you know you aren't getting good sleep, you might want to see if you can find a friend or relative that you can trust to babysit for a few hours and let you sleep. See if that helps. If it does, see if you can get someone to do that every few days until you catch up. If it doesn't, get to a doctor whether loved ones agree or not. Your life and your child's life could be at stake.

Postpartum depression is a very serious ailment that can often be dangerous to you of those around you if left untreated. I know ive been there.
First go and see a doctor and talk to him, he will be able to help you. Secondly as a first time mother you need to learn to take your time. Take it one day at a time. You are learning to be the person that you will become and that isnt easy.
Dont talk about it to people who will only put the blame back on you, its not healthy.
Get as much sleep as you can. When your son sleeps you sleep. Being a parent means learning to deal with mess. Eat regular meals sleep regular hours or atleast 8 hours a day and eat healthy. Thats a good start.
Depression doesnt go away on its own and its often caused by a chemical imbalance. Please go and see a doctor and good luck!

Take st johns wart 3 times a day (with meals)
...and do a search on foods with tryptophan (which is what the body takes and turns into seritonin) which is the stuff that makes people happy.
Fake smile cuz the muscels in your mouth release that seritonin (and make it)...and eat foods that make you healthy, cuz health is a big part in depression.
Its not just about taking care of your son, but letting go of what you could have had cuz it does not matter...and focusing on what you do have now, cuz its the best gift in the world and will make you a better person in the long run...and will and can make you a very happy person.
Once a person becomes selfless they find themselves, and being a mother and happy for being one is the most selfless act a woman can portray.
...just stay focused. I dont advise meds when it comes to depression cuz it never seens to work...thres always a CORE issue.

Start getting involved in things for other people.
Do stuff for others, for your family...
...maybe get involved in some kind of volunteer work.
anything...just figure it out.

No you ca not control postpartum depression. I urge you to see your doctor. I went through tis when I had my son and it made me do some wacky stuff. Some women have even killed their children well suffering the condition. I also advise you look for a group of mothers who suffer or have suffered through the same thing because obviously your family doesn't support you. Just know you are not alone and you are not crazy.

You have no one to blame for this situation but yourself. You should have destroyed that baby before your 2nd trimester of pregnancy. That's what you get for being sentimental and keeping up moral pretenses.