im 15
ive only tried pot once with 2 of my cousins
i just wanted to get a feel of the high to see what everyone at school never shuts up about
it wasnt worth it
i wasnt going to do it again thats for sure
i was very mature when i was high and sleepy
i had to watch two movies with my dad trying to bond with me more
i leave the room after the movies and my cousin blew our cover.
my 2 cousins get kicked out and my stepmom calls the police on them
i was so ashamed of myself i never wanted my parents to find out
i lost everything i have worked so hard to earn from them
responsibility
trust
probably some love
im still responsible i just tried it to get it out of my system
i promised myself and them id never do it again
but they dont believe me right now
i have to earn it
its like restarting a huge portion of your life
i have told them sorry countless times before so why should they believe me now
i mean it wholeheartedly
my family is fighting now 2 aunts of mine my grandma and my stepmom
my aunt and cousin were trying to get me into more trouble by telling my stepmom something i never said
i get slapped, shoved into a dresser, and pushed down into a closet.i have been bruised in the face. my stepmom told me just seeing me makes her want to kick my ass. my 2 cousins parents do not care about what their kids do so much so they get grounded for a week. Halloween is coming up and i dont get to go .i dont get to do many thingsnow. i have to earn their trust from everything such as being on the phone, by myself, on the computer and everything. its like teaching a confused adult how to walk, talk, and read again.
except i learned my lesson the moment i got high
i would have never done the drug again
i promised myself
but i got caught, humiliated, and severely punished
this all happened 3 days ago.
i dont regret trying it though. at least i was in my home with family and not some friends house getting arrested. all i wanted to try it for was to find the big deal. There is none. All you get is droopy tired heavy eyes, thirsty, hungry, and stupid. You'd have to really be a dumbass to do it more than a couple of times. or more than once at all. Or for even trying the stupid plant.
I do wish i could take it back at the same time. because then my life wouldn't be ruined. i would be respected and not disappointing to my parents.
I just wish they realize im the same old person i used to be and not some untrustworthy drugee. But they wont get it. they will just punish me untill i have nothing left to stand on. until all my hope is gone and all i feel is helpless and a want for suicide.
a want for freedom. A want for another chance. i have had many chances for different things. Please oh please give me a second chance. but they wont find this message. it will be on this site they have no idea about. if your child smokes pot once and u catch them. discipline regularly.But if they keep on doing this ground them and make their life unfair to them. show them how much drugs can ruin their life. Give them an intervention. But for the one or few timers give them a chance to explain. put yourself in their position. my stepmom is telling me that it is all my fault.which it is . but im getting blamed for the family fight, my sstepmom said she has to get a job so she can divorce my dad and kick me and him out. all because i tried pot. Drugs is not worth screwing up your life. why do them.
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